Ok so i posted this as a myspace bulletin, and from one guy he said it was written very well(of course i don't think that means much coming from that guy) and i got a comment from another person too. so i decided i'll post it here too. keep in mind i had been drinking before i wrote this as well.
i've been broken up with 2 times in my life, and yet i've never had a girlfriend. i'm not a ladies man, i'm no where close to it. i'm truely a shy guy. i've found a few girls in my life where i've known they liked me and i've liked them back... and not too long after they've started liking me they stopped. this last girl, she was the owner of my heart. i gave her my everything, i would have done anything for her, even leaving everything i'd ever known behind and moving to her. and yet before i could ever have been with her, she lost feelings for me, she found someone close, and she began dating him. then i fucked up the friendship.
my life is about love. that's who i am. the only thing in life that matters to me is being in love. it's the only thing i want. and yet my personal demons keep me from going out and meeting new people, it keeps me from finding someone.
people think they'll offer me advice, tell me to change my life and that everything will click for me, but the advice they offer is easier said than done for me. i can't change that easily.
all i want is to find a girl. a girl that will give me a chance, a girl that will see me for my heart, but i can't even do anything to show it to her. i don't know what i'm doing anymore.
my life is work. work is my life. i have no one to spend my limited free time with, and that just makes me feel worse. my heart is in shreds. i need someone to duct tape it. and yet i realize that i'm asking for something impossible
i've been broken up with 2 times in my life, and yet i've never had a girlfriend. i'm not a ladies man, i'm no where close to it. i'm truely a shy guy. i've found a few girls in my life where i've known they liked me and i've liked them back... and not too long after they've started liking me they stopped. this last girl, she was the owner of my heart. i gave her my everything, i would have done anything for her, even leaving everything i'd ever known behind and moving to her. and yet before i could ever have been with her, she lost feelings for me, she found someone close, and she began dating him. then i fucked up the friendship.
my life is about love. that's who i am. the only thing in life that matters to me is being in love. it's the only thing i want. and yet my personal demons keep me from going out and meeting new people, it keeps me from finding someone.
people think they'll offer me advice, tell me to change my life and that everything will click for me, but the advice they offer is easier said than done for me. i can't change that easily.
all i want is to find a girl. a girl that will give me a chance, a girl that will see me for my heart, but i can't even do anything to show it to her. i don't know what i'm doing anymore.
my life is work. work is my life. i have no one to spend my limited free time with, and that just makes me feel worse. my heart is in shreds. i need someone to duct tape it. and yet i realize that i'm asking for something impossible
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AC