since when did forever stoping being infinit? when did love become something that just magically goes away over nothing. every day i think about her. every day i wish i could have done something to change the outcome. everyday i grow worse. i van't see past this pain. i can't imagine a better day. i can't imagine a day that i don't think about her.
i'm not gonna be ok. i know it. i'm not every person. i can't get over things as easy as anyone else. i can't get over being thrown away by the girl i love. i can't get over not mattering to someone so important that i give up porn over her, i wake up early for her, i stop masturbating during her dot because i know she won't be masturbating.
i'm gonna be changing my top friends very soon. not right now cause i've been drinking and i'm not really thinking. but i'm gonna make the 2 people that have been commenting to me all the time on my top two and i'm sure they know who they are. so yeah. time for some change.
i'm not gonna be ok. i know it. i'm not every person. i can't get over things as easy as anyone else. i can't get over being thrown away by the girl i love. i can't get over not mattering to someone so important that i give up porn over her, i wake up early for her, i stop masturbating during her dot because i know she won't be masturbating.
i'm gonna be changing my top friends very soon. not right now cause i've been drinking and i'm not really thinking. but i'm gonna make the 2 people that have been commenting to me all the time on my top two and i'm sure they know who they are. so yeah. time for some change.
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phoenixgirl:
I have always had money issues, and i do need to make some changes. I will ask the bank about what you said, becaue I have given them hundreds in the last few months in stupid fee's...that sure hasnt helped. I used to be able to talk my way out of them, but the changed their policies, and I can't anymore. And thnax for putting me up on your top freinds, that was sweet...but even if you didnt, it wouldnt matter, because I really care about you. 
alleycake:
Haha, yea. I'm psyched.
post, I'm sorry.
post, I'm sorry.