xxtmnt87xx

Bleh ok so, i've bought a bunch of stuff i need for my computer and i still have a few more to go. windows costs too damn much, but i'm not ready to dive into the lifestyle of linux, and what not. but yeah i keep spending money i don't have. so i still need a case and power supply, and RAM. since this is my first computer being made i'm not too sure about what i should do for RAM, i don't know any specific companies i should trust, and what not, with the case i'm just not sure what i want it to look like, i want it to be unique but i also don't want it to be over the top, i also want it to be reall good for ventilation, cause i want it to be as cool as possible. i don't know i want it to work out well

can't stop thinking about her. everything leads me back to her. i dunno i know i should want her out of my life, and i should move on but i don't feel that way. i don't want people telling me i should move on either. i just can't accept that i can care for someone this much and i have to lose her for good. i'll do whatever it takes to make her ok with me again. i need that. i need her to be part of my life. i still feel like my heart body and mind are all hers. i know this all sounds crazy but i don't know i just don't. she's exactly what i want in a girl. bleh. i don't want my first love to be a girl i never meet.