xxtmnt87xx

Blah. i'm sick of not having someone in my life that would rather talk to me than anything else in the world. i'm sick of always feeling like i rather talk to a specific person than do anything else. i'm sick of falling for a girl so incredibly quickly. i wish i could just change like everything about me.

People infuriate me so much some times. i'm sick of getting ganged up on for getting shit on, i know it's all joking and shit but there's just some shit that gets to me. pointing out the fact that i can't get a woman and that i'm a virgin is one of those things. i don't think i haven't gotten upset at work in the past 2 weeks.

i feel like things are falling apart. i feel like i'm getting worse when it comes to the girl, i feel like i'm becoming more introvert with the lack getting better. i'm sick of feeling lonely i think there was only one time when i haven't felt it, and because of that one time, and losing the person that made me feel like there was someone out there for me, i now feel like i'm so incredibly crazy. i'm sick of complaining all the time, but when all you do is work and then go to your room and remain all day you don't have much else to talk about. i'm sick of people telling me i'll find someone, or that i'll be happy one day. i've waited long enough. 21 years of single and lonely is long enough. the older i get the less of a chance i will find someone because the older i get being this lonely the worse of a person i become. and i hate it.

The TV is my best friend, it's always been there for me, and it's always kept me entertained.