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so yeah last night kinda made plans to go out drinking thursday night with at least one of the guys from work , maybe/hopefully a few more. the one guy just wants to see me drunk really ;x. and it will be fun times.

i talked to the girl last night sort of. i don't know what's happening with all of that, i mean i know that it's not gonna be what it was really, unless i'm lucky and a few years from now when she can move out, we're both single, and she's willing to give shit another chance. but as for friendship it looks like maybe almost sort of a slim chance i can get it. which is good. and i realize it's gonna take a lot of work, and a lot of time, but this is the only girl i've ever known that's broken my heart and i don't want her out of my life, so yeah that means something to me, and i am willing to do anything to keep her in my life.

i need to learn how to body build sort of. i want to gain a good amount of muscle, not like overdone but just enough so that my body looks nice, but i don't know the best way to do that. i've started working out, but i don't have a real set routine, and i'm only going 1 day a week so we're kinda trying to do everything in one day. i have a general idea what to do, but i need to know what excersizes i should do on the certain days. and the types of excersizes don't help me, the names of said excersizes are what i need. so yeah.