Bleh. right now i just really don't want to wake up tomorrow anymore. i'm just so god damn sick of people, telling me how wrong i am for being unhappy. or telling me i'm a bad person cause there's other people out there that have gone through worse. i fucking hate everyone that gives me shit cause i'm "emo" it's so fucking retarded hey. you know if i had a choice i'd fucking get rid of my emotions all together, and then i'd become a douchebag asshole that only cared about sex.
everything just feels so wrong. i don't know i just feel like i'm always made to be the fucking bad guy, and i know sometimes i am the bad guy obviously, but sometimes i'm pushed into that role and i still feel like a piece of shit right after, and i always apologize.
i've never had a relationship even though that's basically the only thing i've always wanted, because i'm to fucking damn shy to even ask a girl out, but now i'm even too shy to talk to girls for the most part. the only girl i ever loved was a girl i never met, and it's killing me how she feels about me now. and i know i shoud get over her but she made me feel better than anyone ever could, and really i don't want to lose her even though i already have.
i really don't want to wake up tomorrow at this point.
everything just feels so wrong. i don't know i just feel like i'm always made to be the fucking bad guy, and i know sometimes i am the bad guy obviously, but sometimes i'm pushed into that role and i still feel like a piece of shit right after, and i always apologize.
i've never had a relationship even though that's basically the only thing i've always wanted, because i'm to fucking damn shy to even ask a girl out, but now i'm even too shy to talk to girls for the most part. the only girl i ever loved was a girl i never met, and it's killing me how she feels about me now. and i know i shoud get over her but she made me feel better than anyone ever could, and really i don't want to lose her even though i already have.
i really don't want to wake up tomorrow at this point.
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And Becky is totally right nothing wrong with being sad I am sad a lot and basically I have gone with the school of thought fuck um to those who tell me to just cheer up or people who say you dont have anything to be sad about.
Sorry about everything else too, don't listen to people who rag on you for having emotions, they're just jealous that your thoughts/personality runs deeper than theirs (don't ever say you'd choose to be like them cause trust me, you woulden't.) You still have to wake up tomorrow, and everything will pass and your time will come and all that shit. Just hang in there, you don't seem shy to me, harness your sg personality in real life, practice on girls you know and don't get too negative or else you'll only draw negativity your way. I know I don't know you and this probably won't make you feel any better, but I've felt what you're feeling so I thought I'd say something more than my first line (which is all I came here to do lol.) If you wanna talk more and whatnot I'd love to, hope I get to see you happier.