xxtmnt87xx

blah blah blah same things as the past couple weeks.

i need to find a way to meet a girl around here, but some way that my shyness won't play a factor, and i need to find a girl that will tell me she loves me and not decide that she doesn't because of a stupid reason or two (namely it would take a longer time to meet because of her not getting to stay in a dorm, and me being depressed because she basically just stopped talking to me outta no where). That's not love

i think people in this world need to be taught what love is, too many people just throw it around, thinking that infatuation is the same as love.

i feel so odd right now, like i dunno i really don't want to talk to anyone really. just with people basically telling me that my depression is retarded and should be easily gotten over, and with people just genuinly making me feel like they don't care, it just seems easier to just not even try with people.

i'm hungry and we don't have food here, there hasn't been food for me in like 2 weeks, and i don't make enough to go shopping for myself for food.

i'm so incredibly lonely, it feels worse now than ever, mainly because i had someone that took away all my sadness and what not and then she gave it back to me ten fold cause now i can't stop thinking about her even though she wants nothing to do with me. i don't want her to be out of my life, no one ever made me feel as good as she did. no one ever made me feel like i mattered the way she did(even if others tried)

*does a little dance*

*makes a little love*

*gets down tonight*

*gets down tonight*