Friday Jun 23, 2006

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i have no more hope.

i've always been single,

i will always be single.

i lost the only person in my life that i never wanted to lose.

all i've ever wanted to do was to be in love, and when i finally did i didn't even get to be with her in person.

i was happy for a while.
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jennylou:
sweetie, you are going to be happy again... it just takes time kiss
havilah:
Hey there!!!!! kiss

Thursday Jun 22, 2006

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Plans fell through. no surprise. bought skittles and super glue to start my big project. dunno how long it's gonna take, i got a lot of letters to do. also need to figure out how to do the red tipped yellow roses.

Wednesday Jun 21, 2006

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i hate people.

i'm never gonna have a girlfriend.

people think i'm crazy for not wanting to lose the girl i'm in love with.

i'm getting worse. i really want to down a full bottle of motrin or something
cecelia:
i feel like that too sometimes, but i'd never do it.

and i feel your pain on the partner thing. i just broke off my relationship with my son's dad, we've been together 5 years, and sometimes i feel like the only thing about him that wasn't a waste of my time was the 2 minutes he spend impregnating me with a fabulous kid smile

dont worry. when life gets you down, think of how much worse it could be, if that helps smile

kiss besos!

Tuesday Jun 20, 2006

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so yeah last night kinda made plans to go out drinking thursday night with at least one of the guys from work , maybe/hopefully a few more. the one guy just wants to see me drunk really ;x. and it will be fun times.

i talked to the girl last night sort of. i don't know what's happening with all of that, i mean i...
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user304975207:
nothin wrong with gettin a little drunk

Saturday Jun 17, 2006

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Bleh. right now i just really don't want to wake up tomorrow anymore. i'm just so god damn sick of people, telling me how wrong i am for being unhappy. or telling me i'm a bad person cause there's other people out there that have gone through worse. i fucking hate everyone that gives me shit cause i'm "emo" it's so fucking retarded hey. you...
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jennylou:
I know hugs totally dont help especially cyber hugs but *hugs* nonetheless.

And Becky is totally right nothing wrong with being sad I am sad a lot and basically I have gone with the school of thought fuck um to those who tell me to just cheer up or people who say you dont have anything to be sad about.
alleycake:
Thanks for saying I'm pretty, and I'm sorry about your back. smile
Sorry about everything else too, don't listen to people who rag on you for having emotions, they're just jealous that your thoughts/personality runs deeper than theirs (don't ever say you'd choose to be like them cause trust me, you woulden't.) You still have to wake up tomorrow, and everything will pass and your time will come and all that shit. Just hang in there, you don't seem shy to me, harness your sg personality in real life, practice on girls you know and don't get too negative or else you'll only draw negativity your way. I know I don't know you and this probably won't make you feel any better, but I've felt what you're feeling so I thought I'd say something more than my first line (which is all I came here to do lol.) If you wanna talk more and whatnot I'd love to, hope I get to see you happier. smile

Friday Jun 16, 2006

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i feel like i need a more positive update, but i don't have much so i'll try to come up with stuff.

So i've started getting into working out, and i think that this week or next week i'm gonna get full into it, and go 3 times a week not just once a week. i want to have a more muscular body and i...
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Thursday Jun 15, 2006

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blah blah blah same things as the past couple weeks.

i need to find a way to meet a girl around here, but some way that my shyness won't play a factor, and i need to find a girl that will tell me she loves me and not decide that she doesn't because of a stupid reason or two (namely it would take a longer...
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user304975207:
i love my beer.

also, you really should. even if youre kinda down, its a really cute movie. everyone ive had watch it loves it.
siamkittie:
JUN 16, 2006 01:28 PM

siamkittie said:
books...even though it takes me forever to finish one

Digital or SLR

not to be an ass but you can have a digital SLR camera ;x so yeah. Digital SLR


yes dear, I know there are such things as DSLR. wink I guess I should've been more specific and said FILM SLR, huh? kiss

Tuesday Jun 13, 2006

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bleh. i didn't go to sid's birthday party. lots of nerves acting up. thought about how i might drive an hour and 45 minutes and not even see her, and even if i did see her i didn't know whether i'd actually go and tell her happy birthday or anything. on top of that i've been thinking about the girl (not sid) all day today....
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had_matter:
That's how the internet works. There's a greater number of people and constant access to new people so there's less emotional involvement with them. I think it's actually harder to meet people and have meaningful relationships online. But don't ask me for advice with girls. It's only recently that I've started finding it easy to approach girls and talk to them. Part of that results from learning to define clear emotional boundaries not being afraid that that might be a problem in the future. IDK if that's your problem. If Sid hates you then I would say avoid her.
dreamarie:
Dude your like hot number one.
Number 2... i Understand whole heartedly about you not being over "the Girl" just in my case its a guy.
3.. If you got to work or school Im sure theres at least a female friend you can talk to about the girl or just anything you feel.
Everything is always easier said than done
And stop putting yourself down kiss

Sunday Jun 11, 2006

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To go to sid's birthday party or not. i know it would be appreciated if i went, and she did say i should go (not that we're really friends(yet)) but it would be really great to get out and do something, and what better way than to celebrate her birthday with her. but then there's the whole nervousness, and shyness and such. she said she'd...
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paine:
You are freaking adorable! love

And yes, I will scratch your bum...but not your crack. You're on your own there, bro.
dreamarie:
I agree with paine, I think you are so cute when you're confused. I think the fact that you dont have work is a sign, go have fun meet her be merry. Everyones always shy at first. kiss

Sunday Jun 11, 2006

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Had a birthday party for a young child to go to today. had to juggle a tiny bit. mostly kept to myself though. got 100 bucks for graduating college though which is nice, i owe about 600 to my credit card so yay.

i'm thinking about getting a protein shake supplement thing, i want to bulk p, and get myself into better shape, used to...
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beaky:
Funny you mentioned baking on the made up story thread... because I have my very own cooking show wink

Thursday Jun 08, 2006

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Ok, time for an update while i'm thinking about it. So after 15 days straight of working i finally have a day off tomorrow, and it's going to be spent seeing x-men3. worked about 48 hours last week i think, only ended up taking home about 330 which isn't too bad i guess. i coulda played some hockey last week but i had to work...
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alexstar6:
Come on dude... i said I'd try to read your journal... 9 Paragraphs is like punishment...

I read one of them for certain... Pogo sticks are cool...
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