since when did forever stoping being infinit? when did love become something that just magically goes away over nothing. every day i think about her. every day i wish i could have done something to change the outcome. everyday i grow worse. i van't see past this pain. i can't imagine a better day. i can't imagine a day that i don't think about her....
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phoenixgirl:
I have always had money issues, and i do need to make some changes. I will ask the bank about what you said, becaue I have given them hundreds in the last few months in stupid fee's...that sure hasnt helped. I used to be able to talk my way out of them, but the changed their policies, and I can't anymore. And thnax for putting me up on your top freinds, that was sweet...but even if you didnt, it wouldnt matter, because I really care about you. 
alleycake:
Haha, yea. I'm psyched.
post, I'm sorry.
post, I'm sorry. New blog. tired out of my mind. lonely out of my mind. depressed out of my mind. can't change. going crazy. le mother fucking sigh. i just farted.
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aijin:
*ears perk up* oh really?
aijin:
<3
Ok so i have nothing interesting to say... BUT... quasi_sean just erm uh made the best most amazing awesometacular thread so you all need to go and be a part of it's greatness and say that i sent you
AWESOMEST THREAD EVER
AWESOMEST THREAD EVER
i'm sorry to all of those who worry about me. i'm really truely an emo kid. i cut myself decently today. worse than normal.
the sane part of me says i really shouldn't tell anyone because really the reason i tell people is to get attention, but the not so sane part of me is the part of me that wins. i'm sorry everyone. i'm...
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the sane part of me says i really shouldn't tell anyone because really the reason i tell people is to get attention, but the not so sane part of me is the part of me that wins. i'm sorry everyone. i'm...
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phoenixgirl:
Well yes we worry about you, you have been so sad. You need to go get help. You need to see someone about your depression and your cutting. There is so much good things out there that life has to offer you. YOu do not need to apologize for anything. Just please go get some help.
heavenandhell:
you do NOT have to apologize for venting on here, it's what it's for. yes, we worry about you, but one day we will get through to you, and we are always here to help.
i'm worried about you cutting yourself though, i know it is only a short term solution, remember, i've done it myself. i'm going to propose another solution. bare with me, it will take a moment to explain. one day i was feeling so bad that the only solution i could see was death, i was on my own and i was desperate, i didn't know what to do, none of my friends were avaliable. so, i sent my best friend an e-mail saying to delete it and not read it. i poured out everything, all the hurt and pain, all the worry, all my fears, everything. she told me she received it, although i never know to this day if she read it. but it helped ease alot of pressure and avoided me taking my life or cutting myself. so if you want me to be that for you i am happy to. we will never discuss it and you will never know if i read it, but it will relieve the pressure i promise you. try it, please. i am always here for you, remember that.
i'm worried about you cutting yourself though, i know it is only a short term solution, remember, i've done it myself. i'm going to propose another solution. bare with me, it will take a moment to explain. one day i was feeling so bad that the only solution i could see was death, i was on my own and i was desperate, i didn't know what to do, none of my friends were avaliable. so, i sent my best friend an e-mail saying to delete it and not read it. i poured out everything, all the hurt and pain, all the worry, all my fears, everything. she told me she received it, although i never know to this day if she read it. but it helped ease alot of pressure and avoided me taking my life or cutting myself. so if you want me to be that for you i am happy to. we will never discuss it and you will never know if i read it, but it will relieve the pressure i promise you. try it, please. i am always here for you, remember that.
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devil_woman:
I started going grey at 13 ..... 
... To me grey hair on men is sexy , so no worries! What the hell did you do that scraped you up so bad????
... To me grey hair on men is sexy , so no worries! What the hell did you do that scraped you up so bad????
dhd_no_pants:
Grey hair is sneaking up on me.
Just stopping by to let you know that I am loving all the band suggestions you left in the 'teach me' thread.
Just stopping by to let you know that I am loving all the band suggestions you left in the 'teach me' thread.
so yeah i really don't think i'm meant to date/be in love/get married/anything that has to do with the opposite sex... i dunno i'm just really dependent on people i guess. likr my emotions very much so stem from others. i can't be happy if i don't have someone that i really truly care for and they are a main part of my life. i...
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heavenandhell:
you already have all the answers, so go apply them.
i'm excited for tomorrow a little bit. i have a 45 hour paycheck comming to me tommorow and with the pay raise that means it will be pretty good (for what i'm doing) i really need the money, i owe shitloads, and hopefully i'll get to pay off my credit cards soon. i pretty much maxed them both when i made my computer. it came...
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phoenixgirl:
I'm glad to see you in a bit of a better mood. Money is always a good thing!!......and don't feel pressured to start dating, you will when the time is right for you, don't pressure yourself. 
I am feeling so blah right now. i really really need someone to help me find someone to love. but really how can anyone do that? i just wish i had people to go out with. everyone i work with, except a few, are under 21 so they can't go to bars with me or anything plus i don't think i would want to go...
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devil_woman:
everyone needs to vent .... thats why you have friends is so they can read and give some advice when needed or just say they understand.
you'll find a girl, but it will probably happen when your not looking
you'll find a girl, but it will probably happen when your not looking
thrash242:
I hear ya, man. I've been feeling pretty much the same way. I seriously need a woman, but:
a) I suck at talking to women
b) the only ones I know are either teenagers at work or online and live far away
c) all the girls I meet that I am interested in are taken or inaccessible in some other way
I just want someone to love, to watch movies with, just *be with*. Preferably someone into video games, zombies, and cool music. Is that too much to ask?
a) I suck at talking to women
b) the only ones I know are either teenagers at work or online and live far away
c) all the girls I meet that I am interested in are taken or inaccessible in some other way
I just want someone to love, to watch movies with, just *be with*. Preferably someone into video games, zombies, and cool music. Is that too much to ask?
so today is my fathers birthday. and now that would be fine, if it weren't for the fact that it's also the girl who i still loves birthday as well. and all i can think about is how she is probably with her guy and happy, and having a wonderful birthday and how i have nothing to do with that. and i really wish i...
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devil_woman:
I know guys who are that shy, Its hard, I see the pain in their face when they see an opportunity, but they just cant do it. I dont know what helps someone get over that hump, but I do know when you find a girl and she sees past your shyness, she'll bring you out of it. And after thet you may feel more confident..... Hope it works out for you.
heavenandhell:
i'm not going to offer advice, but i wish from the bottom of my heart that things would get better for you.
take care.
take care.
Went to see pirates of the carribean 2 today. i liked it up until the end. i mean seriously it's one thing to have a story end and a second begin but when they don't even end the story in the first one that just stinks :-(. it's an hey we're gonna make you pay for 2 movies when really we coulda said it all...
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jennylou:
...that's it... when J24U goes shopping... biscuts go on the list... you have me totally craving them! 
kindle:
Thank you hon 
So there once was this girl that told me she loved me. i told her i loved her too. now she was the first girl that i ever loved, and that loved me. and my world was above the clouds, nothing could make me happier. so one day, she plans on going out with her friends and then when she gets home to talk to...
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phoenixgirl:
i was thinking of yu when i put that up too. Things do happen for a reason, there is a lot of bad shit, but it makes you stronger, you have to learn from it. Trust me.
ironstein:
You asked a Q in someone elses journal about what happens when a soul fails a test...I subscribe to the theory that we are destined to keep reliving our mistakes until we learn from them ... eg - drug habits, really bad relationships with the wrong people, wrong jobs, so many things. If it happens within the duration of our lives, why not outside the duration of our lives. Might be a bit simplistic, but it works for me
sometimes people are just too predictable. like when my boss make a crack at my last name (we'll just say my last name has the word cock in it) or when people use my member name for part of a joke(not that i mind, just get disappointed in it sometimes). and then other times they are just so incredibly unpredictable, like when it comes to...
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alleycake:
Why are you always tired? Party too hard? lol
I feel like I want to go less and less too but I know once I start I'll love it again cause I actually like my major now and I'm not just going to get a good job. I do love the college experience though if I didn't have that I don't think I'd stay.
What did you study?
Party too hard? lol
I feel like I want to go less and less too but I know once I start I'll love it again cause I actually like my major now and I'm not just going to get a good job. I do love the college experience though if I didn't have that I don't think I'd stay.
What did you study?
alleycake:
I'm sorry to hear that.. so what do you do now?
I'm studying Lit, another major that has no jobs lined up but I love it so I'm hoping something good will come of it.
I'm studying Lit, another major that has no jobs lined up but I love it so I'm hoping something good will come of it.