every day i feel like i'm drowning into madness a little more. everyday i keep thinking about her. every day i'm wishing things would work out in some magical way. everyday i wish i could just make that girl smile her god damn brains out. and everyday i worry about how everyone else thinks i'm crazy for how i feel, and they are all gonna...
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millie:
Good luck with your plans. 
millie:
I'm sorry to hear that.
Ok here's me talking. it kinda sucks audio wise but oh well. also i know i forgot to say hey to a few people, sorry bout that. but yeah have a listen if you want.
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millie:
You are being silly. Your edits are making me laugh. 
ok i'm real bored and don't have much to update with other than to say yesterday really sucked for me.
so i'm gonna try to get some reader participation. send me something awesome. a picture, a video, a webcam message, anything your heart desires, just make me feel a tad bit special and entertain me at the same time. got a youtube video that cracks...
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so i'm gonna try to get some reader participation. send me something awesome. a picture, a video, a webcam message, anything your heart desires, just make me feel a tad bit special and entertain me at the same time. got a youtube video that cracks...
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millie:
I am happy to hear that!!!
phoenixgirl:
I got a sweet surprise in the mail last night...thanx so much, i wanna hug you! 
i'm on lunch break and i'm really bored. i'm not even eatting anything today cause there's not much to choose from.
i feel like getting suggestions for a blog. like everyone gives me things to talk about or questions about me or anything, but i know i won't get enough topics/ideas so i dunno.
my contentment is very much going back in forth. some days...
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i feel like getting suggestions for a blog. like everyone gives me things to talk about or questions about me or anything, but i know i won't get enough topics/ideas so i dunno.
my contentment is very much going back in forth. some days...
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devil_woman:
Why thankyou !!!!!! I always kinda wonder about my pics.... 
.... self esteem and all.
yeah cleaning around here is a never ending job, and i know people say that but mine really is lol... 5 kids and a 3 bedroom house is not all that its cracked up to be
I truly hope you the best in the world you really are sweet and you deserve a sweet girl
.... self esteem and all.
yeah cleaning around here is a never ending job, and i know people say that but mine really is lol... 5 kids and a 3 bedroom house is not all that its cracked up to be
I truly hope you the best in the world you really are sweet and you deserve a sweet girl
heavenandhell:
i haven't been about too much recently, for some reason i've had loads to do. running around after my parents took up alot of time too.
glad to see you are having some good days now. it's just like i told you before, the only way is up.
just thought, i wonder if your brother is wanting to ask you to be godfather when you go round for a meal.
take care.
glad to see you are having some good days now. it's just like i told you before, the only way is up.
just thought, i wonder if your brother is wanting to ask you to be godfather when you go round for a meal.
take care.
Ok so update on the work thing, but most probably already know. so yeah i got a one day suspension which i served the day before i was even told about the suspension. ;x the other kid got a 5 day suspension starting on last saturday(i think it would have been worse but we have a huge 3 day sale this weekend and they want...
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millie:
*hugs*
I'm sorry to hear that.
Here is hoping that your birthday this upcoming March is truly terrific!!!
*hugs*
I'm sorry to hear that.
Here is hoping that your birthday this upcoming March is truly terrific!!!
millie:
That's no good! I hope that you find a special someone soon.
I hope that you find a special someone soon. Ok so yeah for anyone that hasn't heard, last night i punched a co-worker. so onto the story.
So there's a kid at work he has this fascination with A) calling people gay. and B) slapping peoples backs to make them sting. and i tend to be one of his main targets for both. and to be honest when someone honestly tries to insult me...
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So there's a kid at work he has this fascination with A) calling people gay. and B) slapping peoples backs to make them sting. and i tend to be one of his main targets for both. and to be honest when someone honestly tries to insult me...
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eternalxile:
Hopefully everyone will forgive me for playing the part of the little devil on your shoulder telilng you to do bad stuff but fuck it. That was awesome. There are some ass clowns that just dont take the hint when you tell them to shut the fuck up and you gotta knock them into next week. I cant say i would have handled the situation any other way. Congrats on standing up for yourself and not taking shit from that little prick.
devil_woman:
you cant let people treat you like dirt... ever.... you stuck up for yourself and seemes to handle the situation so.... hopefully the kids learns a lesson... and doesnt screw with people anymore.
So i feel the need to write a blog. it's not gonna be unhappy from my point of view but yeah.
First off i gotta say I miss Beaky. he's good people and it sucks that he doesn't have the interenet right now. so everyone really needs to comment to him about how much they miss him cause sometimes he can get on so yeah...
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First off i gotta say I miss Beaky. he's good people and it sucks that he doesn't have the interenet right now. so everyone really needs to comment to him about how much they miss him cause sometimes he can get on so yeah...
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martini:
yay for working out..
i should follow your lead, i need to lose a few inches in my... everywhere!
i'm happy to see you in higher spirits...
someday you'll realize mulling over one broad isn't worth it.. until then, we'll all try to keep you going!
and uh... i'm a text-messaging whore.. maybe i'll copy down your number.
xo
i should follow your lead, i need to lose a few inches in my... everywhere!
i'm happy to see you in higher spirits...
someday you'll realize mulling over one broad isn't worth it.. until then, we'll all try to keep you going!
and uh... i'm a text-messaging whore.. maybe i'll copy down your number.
xo
heavenandhell:
love the positivity of this journal.........................keep going!!
i mean common, just look at my penis.
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beaky:
Hey what's up bro?? god I miss you guys
beaky:
you have no idea how much I'm suffering right now without it...
i've decided i'm no longer going to post on here anymore. all i do is bitch and complain and i don't do anything to change my situation. i'm still not gonna do anything because my heart soul and mind are too weak to do anything but now i'm just not gonna vent on here anymore. maybe keeping it bottled up will do me some good...
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heavenandhell:
once again jynee is right, listen to her, she makes sense.
i hold my hands up, i'll admit, sometimes i want to shake you and tell you to snap out of it, BUT i am realistic and i know that won't and can't make a difference. it's you and only you that can find the strength within to pull you out of this, you just have to want to find it. if you look, it's there.
i hold my hands up, i'll admit, sometimes i want to shake you and tell you to snap out of it, BUT i am realistic and i know that won't and can't make a difference. it's you and only you that can find the strength within to pull you out of this, you just have to want to find it. if you look, it's there.
aijin:
what everone else already said.
i just wanna stop fucking crying. i can't ever stop crying. i'm not who i wanted to be. i'm not who others want me to be. i can't stop the tears anymore. i've shed so many tears in my life and i'll shed millions more over this one girl.
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devil_woman:
thanx for the Bday wishes!
Look up... the world is here for you not the other way around.... try and remember what made you happy BEFORE this girl came around.... and try and get back in to something that you enjoy...
Look up... the world is here for you not the other way around.... try and remember what made you happy BEFORE this girl came around.... and try and get back in to something that you enjoy...
devil_woman:
have you thought od seeing someone to help figure this out...? beleive me it CAN help. I know everyone is teling you to stop how your acting but sometimes you just cant, there are reasons for that sometimes....and people cam help pin point what they are.
sorry just a suggestion
sorry just a suggestion
i've lost all hope, i've lost my faith, happiness has never been anything close to permanent in my life. i don't know that i have much more to lose, honestly there's only one thing i can think of that i have to lose, and honestly i would love to lose it. i just don't see myself getting better. i've gotten myself into a blackhole the...
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avalon13chase:
listen.I love you, and i dont just toss love around. you are fucking funny and smart nd all that makes someone good and special. If you were happy and and up beat or solemn and sad, id still be here for you. I wish we could meet up so you could see how sincere I am.
aijin:
*hug*
*nibbles on ear*
*nibbles on ear*
Ok so i posted this as a myspace bulletin, and from one guy he said it was written very well(of course i don't think that means much coming from that guy) and i got a comment from another person too. so i decided i'll post it here too. keep in mind i had been drinking before i wrote this as well.
i've been broken up...
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heavenandhell:
chill, go for a massage, get rid of some of those knots and like jynee said, take one day at a time. it's not going to change overnight, it is going to take work, and that depends on how much you put into it.
take care.
take care.
avalon13chase:
i wish i could give you a cure all answer. you are great though, and she will come. I swear that to you. There is a hot momma with a great sense of humor and a HUGE heart somewhere. but you need to relax, obsessing is not going to bring her to you. I love you hunny, and we really should have added eachother as friends much sooner. I am here. Above all dont change you. You will never find real love if you arent the real you.
xxxooo
AC
xxxooo
AC