xxtinkerbellxx

So, November looks like its going to suck. School is taking up all of my time and I won't be able to go out and play any time soon. I've been busting my balls trying to get a job until...I thought about the whole cycle of life. Here I am, trying to get a job before I graduate so that I can bust my ass at a job until I retire or die. And That's It. That's really all that life is and it's depressing. Where the hell is the meaning in all of this?

What makes it worse is that I can't feel close to anyone. All I feel is fondness or lust, which just adds to the whole ennui of the situation.

I wish I could reach a point where I could accept the meaninglessness of life but I can't. I still feel cheated somehow.

How do you guys make it through all this crap??