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And she came back.

A year after killing me shes comes back.

And do I play hard to get or stay critically minded with her after what we went through? Nope. Do I play any of the cards I could have played and daydreamed about playing in bitter moments? Nah. Like a fool I welcomed her back with only a twinge of reluctance.

And I spent all day today in something close to the state I was in a year ago and all I can say is.....























"Fuck this."

I may not be able to keep my ignorant ass heart from having feelings for her, but I'm not doing this again. Indifference and cynicism be thy saviors. I'm sure I'll get killed again in this life, burned again by some girl I let my walls down for, but it sure as hell is gonna be caused by someone other than her.

That's as optimistic as I can get, people.

And to any women out there that this next bitter bit may apply to:

If you've gotta good guy with you who looks out for ya, is a friend and a lover, and someone who honestly realizes what you mean to him, blah, blah etc, etc----Fucking appreciate him!! Theres actually a ton more I could say but who the fuck reads this anyway. Its just an outlet.