xxmonsterxx

black venom serpents swimming in my veins
can't stop screaming, oh god am i insane?
blaming you for all the insecurities
all these goddamned years
the razor is so tempting
to wash away my tears

fuck school, fuck assholes, fuck drama, fuck hangovers, fuck climbing gas prices, fuck shaving, fuck conservatives, fuck skid marks, fuck credit card debt, fuck traffic tickets, fuck court dates, fuck bathing, fuck breathing, fuck you, fuck orange county, fuck posers, fuck snotty spoiled bitches, fuck chicks that won't put out, fuck ex-girlfriends, fuck friends that stab you in the back, fuck religious extremists, fuck god,...
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fuck me, i'm a greedy bastard.

jaw suddenly weighs a thousand pounds.
so dark.

Darwin is God.

its a good thing they pay me as much as they do. i got stuck driving one vehicle that broke down 10 FUCKING TIMES!!! on the way back from fed ex. so ,duh, i switch. well, this next one shuts off if you brake or take a corner too fast. not having power steering or power brakes is a bad thing if its been raining...
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do you think jesus was the favorite child? i wonder if joseph beat him like a bastard step-child of god...

must be a tornado coming today. its pitch black outside and its only 4:30 pm. good, i've been praying for rain.

i never realized how small-minded my immediate family is. i know my dad is small-town white-trash, but my mother has always been pretty accepting...
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i know if you've read any of my previous updates (yeah, right, who reads this shit?) anyway, you'd know that i've been getting pissed about the fact that they've been sticking me in a can and making me load mail instead of driving the mail to fed ex. well, turns out, loading mail kicks ass. maybe i'm bored pulling the mail to the cans, or...
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well, friday night got cancelled b/c i woke up with a murderous fucking migraine. that's fine, b/c i found out that an ex-gf who i'm not so keen about was there, and that would have ruined my night anyway.

i took a load of excedrin and thought i was getting better saturday, but i woke up sunday morning w/ a fucking cold. i hate when...
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if you say you're going to come in and help a different shift, you don't take the cushiest fucking job there is. no, if you're going to help, you dive in and get your hands dirty. fuck, there are some lazy dipshits in the world.

i'm taking tonight off. some friends and i are gonna go to our old h.s.'s homecoming game. they've had...
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well, i took care of two errands i've been meaning to do for a while. i got my ear's stretched. i had planned to go from a 10g to an 8g. but for some reason, the 8g just slipped in, so Elaina bumped it up to a 6g. after having it done, let me say this: stretching fucking HURTS!! she said it was a...
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those cocksuckers made me load mail all goddamned night on saturday/sunday. that's almost supposed to be a night off for me. i usually do nothing but pull the cans out. (THAT'S RIGHT, I PULL CANS OUT ALL SATURDAY NIGHT!!!). but the guy who does it the rest of the week came in, so i figured i'd be driving the mail down to FedEx...nope, my manager...
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