xxjcblackheartxx

The end is near....Sunny has to go back to WV to be back with her family her kids especially ...I hope when she goes home she is happy again ... after 7 months of love.I am pretty scared to be honest as she told me she want to go there as friends still talk and everything but i guess when she leaves we are no longer engaged, she wants to take it slow she says she still loves me and i believe that...I love her and i mean truly love her...In my entire life through all of my exes...and exploits with women ...I have never met a person who completed me like she does.,..everything from what music we listen too to the way we make love( the best for both of us)....to the way she has already inspired me to become a better person, I honestly could can not stop talking about how perfect she is with all of her complexity it would be hard to put it into words...I truly wish and hope the best for her...I love Sunny unconditionally if she were to sleep with a million guys i'd lover her just the same...I guess this is what it is like to be unconditionally in love with someone. We have had so many ups and downs mostly becuz of her stripping but i know that was to provide for her kids, or external sources...but i have to say that when we had it we had it ...I've never known a love like her...I guess my fear is if this doesn't pan out....which i am praying she sees me for the person i am....What will i do ...I am on a path toward loving myself and self improvement that was started by me meeting her...I know i can live my life without her..but the prospect of knowing you have a soul mate out there and that you might now ever be intimate with her again is pretty scary....still i'll try my hardest to put her first and pray about this...I truly love this girl and i hope there really is a reason for this

so i guess she wants to be back with her husband...Oh boy...i love her so much i can't even be mad ...i am just destroyed right now....god i wish i could just hold her right now