xxjcblackheartxx

So the word for today is obsession

For the past 3 months I've worked at the strip club I've had this terrible terrible attraction to a co worker....I guess i brought this on myself we hang out so much outside of work and Its like plaguing me how attracted I am to her. Everyone at the club thinks we are dating because we hang out so fucking much ..or argue all the time ....
Like in my entire life I've never had someone just make me want to constantly be around them.

Maybe its her positive energy that makes me fucking crazy. Its so bad that i had sex with a girl not to long ago and thought about her the whole time. This girl has been my only desire and fantasy for the last 7 weeks like literally fantasize about her all day

Its strange becuase of her line of work I see her strip for other men and she gives me looks all the time while doing it....My mind kinda drifts off and Imagine us doing unmentionable things. I just wish this would go away its really out of character to let a girl exercise this much power over me.

Women can be scary powerful with attraction its always been an extreme ironic how the sex that has been treated with second class status in some countries or just property in other countries can drive a men to do crazy things ....

I don't know what the fuck to do about this ...its killing me I've thought about just not talking to her anymore or hanging out with her outside of work but i guess really i know that it wont help ...

ohh fuck all