Fuck, when will this all end.....I am sick of feeling like shit ever day that I come home...All I have lately to keep me from jumping in front of a truck is training ( oh well I had training now i have to get surgery on my foot), and a few friends I've managed to make on SG. I've given up officially on being happy with someone, now It seems I'll just bide my time.
In the mean time I'll be drinking myself into Alcohol poisoning daily .....maybe one day I'll actually drink to much and not wake up.
I guess an edit to the insanity ...i still feel like shit....i mean uber shit but...thanks to friends mainly on SG and others I feel as though i am doing the right thing for both of our happiness.. though it hurts me to hurt someone i love...I am not going to be vilified i know what i did wrong and what i did right to get to this point and I'll own up to those things...
Thank
You to everyone who had PMed or even took the time to call to see if i was ok and alive...I just hope i can get through this
In the mean time I'll be drinking myself into Alcohol poisoning daily .....maybe one day I'll actually drink to much and not wake up.
I guess an edit to the insanity ...i still feel like shit....i mean uber shit but...thanks to friends mainly on SG and others I feel as though i am doing the right thing for both of our happiness.. though it hurts me to hurt someone i love...I am not going to be vilified i know what i did wrong and what i did right to get to this point and I'll own up to those things...
Thank
You to everyone who had PMed or even took the time to call to see if i was ok and alive...I just hope i can get through this
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The vet bill was 2700. Thank goodness my credit is high, I was able to put it on a Care Credit card.