Boy oh boy i don't feel like a 5 am wake up but this is the military
i wonder what else i would be doing if i was'nt in
.....i have been having a lot of "what ifs" moments lately.....its just fucking depressing,
in a sense i want to deploy again so that i may appreciate everything I take for granted.
As it stands me and Angela are not doing well
i dont want to hurt her but it seems just being with her is a daily battle.....
i guess i dont know if its worth it anymore .....basically we have until the end of this year to fix it or forget it....i just hope if we do split at that time we can do it on good terms...
she has proposed having an open relationship...though i can't say if this interjection into an already damaged relationship will help
maybe i am scared i can't find anyone else .....
ohh boy .....i just don't know.... somet times i feel like i am in it to not give up and not because i love her...i care for her still but i think my love is fading ....
i wonder what else i would be doing if i was'nt in
.....i have been having a lot of "what ifs" moments lately.....its just fucking depressing,
in a sense i want to deploy again so that i may appreciate everything I take for granted.
As it stands me and Angela are not doing well
i dont want to hurt her but it seems just being with her is a daily battle.....
i guess i dont know if its worth it anymore .....basically we have until the end of this year to fix it or forget it....i just hope if we do split at that time we can do it on good terms...
she has proposed having an open relationship...though i can't say if this interjection into an already damaged relationship will help
maybe i am scared i can't find anyone else .....
ohh boy .....i just don't know.... somet times i feel like i am in it to not give up and not because i love her...i care for her still but i think my love is fading ....
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BTW, the Gala was an event that people from eastern canada organized bringing a bunch of SG members and models together. Good fun, lotsa of alcohol and good music, good times.
And about the girl you're seeing... not sure having an open relationship is the solution to the problem. That shit could complicate things if things aren't already going well to begin with. Open relationships aren't for everyone. And having a long distance relatoinship isn't helping the situation any either. I'd reevaluate what you'd want out of this relationship, and if you can't get it, just move on.
Hopefully we'll get a game in soon man, I need to humiliate more people with my Dan skillz!