Another day goes by.....Iraq is getting cooler....refreshing....i actually seem to have one more mission before i go home......so i guess they wanna work me until i go home .....whatever.....hopefully this will be a peaceful trip...i no longer have the urge to get into more fire fights.....it's about 22:00 or 10:00 for the civillians....and as per usual peaceful slumber avoids me like the selfish fickle girl she is....i can't seem to get to sleep unless i drug myself still others things keep me awake.....i have had some crazy lyrics going on in my mind lately they keep me up at night....I need to put them on paper.....
Talked to the Carina today.....always good to talk with her and share moments of nastalgia even though phone conversations seems to not be in either of our favours.....i miss my old life sometimes......i am recalling a moment in my life when i did'nt think so deeply about everything moving so fast around me.....and i think this was called childhood....my wrist still fucking hurts.....
in other horrible news.....my grandmother on my mothers side died last night.....this is 5 months after my grandfather died....i was'nt particularly close to either of them...but i find it a ironic and sad that they both died alone....even though they were surrounded by a sea of people...i do believe it was karma in some ways....i won't go into it now.....
when i think to deeply and close my eyes....i begin to worry about everything....i must try and focus on what i can change now.....l
my tummy is full really full i literally ate 1 pound of pinapple...my diet strikes again....loving the result though....worked out for 3 hours......so i am lil tired still i can't find sleep this night.....so i will write......since i can't play drums.....
i am dead
Talked to the Carina today.....always good to talk with her and share moments of nastalgia even though phone conversations seems to not be in either of our favours.....i miss my old life sometimes......i am recalling a moment in my life when i did'nt think so deeply about everything moving so fast around me.....and i think this was called childhood....my wrist still fucking hurts.....
in other horrible news.....my grandmother on my mothers side died last night.....this is 5 months after my grandfather died....i was'nt particularly close to either of them...but i find it a ironic and sad that they both died alone....even though they were surrounded by a sea of people...i do believe it was karma in some ways....i won't go into it now.....
when i think to deeply and close my eyes....i begin to worry about everything....i must try and focus on what i can change now.....l
my tummy is full really full i literally ate 1 pound of pinapple...my diet strikes again....loving the result though....worked out for 3 hours......so i am lil tired still i can't find sleep this night.....so i will write......since i can't play drums.....
i am dead