xxjcblackheartxx

Hmm another day closer to going home....My commander gave this speach today about being tired from 12 months away from home and how going much it sucks basically....i normally don't like officers but i really respect him....he is a great speaker.....

I have my final mission until i go on leave...i am a little more nervous .....i really would rather not get clipped right before i go home.....god i hate this place....another 20 years young kid just lost his life here...it's crazy i have become so comfortable with death....i do still miss Bernard..i wish he was still around....
I miss old friends...it seems with the exception of Carina all of my old friends have moved beyond my contact....this makes me sad....

on a less serious note.....i bought a new camera so as soon as i can figure it out....the pics will be coming....
me and the girl have'nt talked today weird.....I truly hope all this distance is the problem between us.....
i guess when we move in together this will be my true test if i am currently cut out for marriage .....i feel like in some ways i have been trying to be married my whole life....i mean i have'nt really had a single one night stand.. in the pas it had the bad habit of fallilng for women who stepped on my heart with 3 inch heels and laughed about it.....so i don't know how much i enjoyed being single
on the flip side it did produce some of my best poems and songs.....

I am so fucking tired.....i wish i had the time to play tonight...i think the MWR is getting tired of me wrecking their set anyway.....lets see i ran 4 miles and worked out fo 2 hours.....i am getting out of shape.....lol

i guess that's a wrap i am dead