xxjcblackheartxx

I am enjoying my leave....despite having to move in two days.....it feels good to do nothing ever once and a while, i haven't really trained just sat around drank a bit and watch mad anime
i guess i forget to sit still and enjoy a moment ever now and again......

moving is fucking stressful nonetheless

6 glasses of wine later my B day seems to be going a little better....though i can't shake the feeling i could be having more fun....
sigh

Happy Birthday to me i guess
though the age of 25 doesn't seem to grant me any special powers or ungodly knowledge...
i guess i can settle with tax and insurance breaks

12 days off....i am excited....this will give me time to train and relax.......
going through my vinyls putting them in order.....
from gang star to johnny cash i have to much music....never thought i would say such a thing.....
but i can't bring myself to get rid of anything

so my first session back went well ...i am lot more fatigued than i usually am....i guess its that two month recover period as much as i hate being weaker......it will help me in the end not be broken when i my dad's age....the military has done bad things to his body....wear and tear aren't the word....so i am trying to be a little more...
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This time last year i was doing something worth while .....now it seems i am met day after day with disappointing and uninspired reasons to go to work everyday....i hate being a soldier sometimes....i love doing my job in iraq or Afghanistan but outside of that i absolutely hate the military....i guess i could just say i am really displeased with my current assignment and...
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soo i finally copped some new music....Cuban Linx II new this Raekwon is fucking great ...very impressed.....
i am upset no new hardcore albums have come out.....
furthermore Rise Against last album kinda sucked to me.....
the New AFI is different....not bad but futher and further away from there older stuff

today i should be able to do some warm up training without hurting myself........
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24 late i am still awake....i know it's not to early for a shot .....i have to get some fucking sleep...jeez i hate 24 hour duty though it could have been worse....

so i am really fucked up at the moment ......vicodin and beer are a good and bad combo it seems.....at least i'll get a full night's sleep
so tommrow i have 24 hour duty which sucks but is great .....now i have Friday off so i guess there's my silver lining to this crappy week.....

i feel really out of shape becuase of my injuries...
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finally i am free from all afflictions...i can begin training again.....this week should be better than the last week i get paid of Friday i also have staff duty on Thursday which mean i get a 3 day weekend.....and i can drink again....

this weekend was pretty relaxing...though i have stayed in bed so much more than i have ever cared too ohh well.....

realizes my last post was far to brief and uninformative as this one will probably be...
i guess i am off to watch more Naruto ....
god i am nerd

so i got my account back...i guess have had my head in the clouds for too long