xxdistortmexx

I finally heard from Mr Jake.
And...
he's in Lakeland, Florida.
I cried. And cried.
That's 1400 miles away. I probably am gauarnteed to never see him again.

And then
he told me he loved me.
I have never heard those words escape his lips, ever.
He said he loved me and that he never knew what he missed out on.
I sat in disbelief for he longest time. And tears just fell down my cheeks.
And I thought, why now?

And I for sure have to say goodbye now.

You can imagine how much pain I feel. But I am moving myself, to PA - and I have to get through this somehow. I want to scream. I want to cry - but I don't anymore.
I just try to forget.
Because I need someone who will make me feel as good as Jake did - without the painful part.

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Anyway, I'm glad everyone likes my hair. I love it. I'm going to stay with it for a long time. All my friends at home like it too.
I feel like changing everything. I've been cleaning out my bedroom today, and I've been throwing a lot away.
I'm moving after all.
Change is taking place.
I like that feeling.
I'm scared too, sure, but I think it will be good for me.


Anyway, dolls, that is all. <3