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I've come to realize that friends are too important to me. They are my family as it were, since my own family is really not much to speak of. I get too attached to people, and always seem to be in the middle of the shit-storm, helping them with their problems. At the moment, my friend Sylver is going through a messy divorce and is living with me. Her I can deal with most of the time without problems, as we are all to similar in how we think and feel. My husband and I are going through a rough-patch ourselves, but are working through it. My friend Ben is going through some shit I don't even know how to describe except that aparently he is in love with me and believes somewhere down the road that I will leave my husband and run off into the sunset with him. I have had men think this before, and had to end all friendship... I hope I don't have to do that again. I am polyamorous by nature, and have fought long and hard to get to where I am today with my marriage and relationships. I am madly in love with someone now, but afraid to get close because of my ex. He hurt me in the worst way. My ex has started talking to me again, trying to get close to not only me but to Crash, and to his son. I am afraid to even talk to him, for fear of history repeating itself. I have another friend who I have not met yet in person, who I desperately want to hang out with, but with life being so hectic I don't know when that could possibly happen. I have lost myself in video-games and IMs lately, and have put the rest of my own world on the back-burner waiting for things to tide over. Bad idea I know. But right now, between the drama and stress I can't do anything else.

I am moving to the states in July, back to NV and all the family drama there. Not sure if I am sending in a set before that or not, but I will let y'all know if I do.