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Definition for existentialism...
The study of, or search for, meaning in one's existence, or existence as a whole. Also a modern idealism brought about in the mid 1960s, whereby people are made to feel insignificant, lacking of purpose or socially un-acceptable through a process of over-analizing their own rejections and defeats.

Personally, I find that existence as a whole can be both beautiful and painful simultaneously. But at the moment, and for the last few years, my own life has been more pain and emptiness than beauty and fulfillment. Ergo my cycle of hiddeous depression.

(That, and on Sims 2: University, it's one of the semester course-studies in philosophy.)