xviolentxbeautyx

If there was a song to express everything I feel right now.......this would be it.

"Maybe Not"

So I wait,
for that day,
that I wont feel anything anymore.
Look in your eyes,
now i find,
things will never be the way they were before.
You come and see,
the things i lack.
Still make me smile,
say "never to look back".
Though I seem fine.
I've realized,
I find in you what i should take with me.

Baby, your not the one I want to be with,
not that there are things I wouldnt miss,
not the girl that you want me to be.
Your not the future that Im chasing,
not the fears i should be facing,
not that I wont miss the smile I saw in your eyes,
once in awhile.

Its just not the same,
when your pillow replaces your body,
on your side of the bed.
The closer I get to when I seem to forget,
when you pulled away from me.
Your eyes become distant,
so distant.
It was a journey that I was willing to take.
Still I cant believe Im haunted,
by your smile, your eyes, your touch, your everything.
I'll never trade that for the world.

So your not the one I want to be with,
not that there are things I wouldnt miss,
not the girl that you want me to be.
Not the future that Im chasing,
not the fears I should be facing,
not that I wont miss the smile I saw in your eyes
once in awhile.

~Fatesgame

::sigh::