What the fuck is wrong with you?
What are you thinking?
I hope you know, your really fuckin stupid
you know that, dont you?
Why do you sit there and walk around
with a smile on your face?
Why do you act like everythings ok?
You know its not?
Is this really what you expected?
Is it what you wanted?
Are you happy now?
Is this the price you pay for "happiness"?
What has gotten in to you?
I bet you think your innocent in this, dont you?
Did you know your just as much to blame?
Did you know, you could have prevented this?
you do know that this is your choice, RIght?
That You chose what path to go down,
Do you want to keep heading down that path?
Do you just want to keep acting like nothing is wrong?
Fucking with minds, and lying to yourself?
Is that what you call living.....
When you go to sleep at night
Do you have wonderful Dreams?
How about vivid nightmares?
Close your eyes and what do you see?
I hope this image is burned into your mind for all enternity.
When your waking up in the middle of the night.......
Remember, You brought this upon yourself.
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Its been almost a week since I was admitted into the Emergency Room.
Still I have no answers. Only the stress that lingers in my mind of all the possibilities that could be going on. Ive tried to contact my Doctor 3 times. He has yet to return my call. It kinda disappoints me, being that I work in the medical field. Under are protocall we are required to contact the patient with in 24 hours of recieving blood work especially if theyre flags on the results. So I had them confirm them confirm that my results were in fact there. So they were kind enough to fax them over to me. RIght off the bat, I noticed two high level flags. My Hemoglobin and my Hematocrit. My neutrophils are at the highest of my reference interval. Apparently, something is going on. Tht thing that sucks is..... it could be anything from just being dehydrated all the way down to diseases in my Bone Marrow. :;Shrugs:: Just one more thing to ponder and worry about. Ive been putting something off for a few weeks now. I really should be heading out and getting this taken care of. I'm just kinda scared that this test, I could fail. Stupid mistakes in Judgement. Would you ever read me to be that type of person........ No? Yeah Im not to good at reading into people well either,apparently. I just want to stay at home and take my muscle relaxers so I can have a good nights sleep, pain free. .............
yeah Id update on all the wonderful things going on in my life, but Fuck that shit........
I'll save it for when you least expect it.
What are you thinking?
I hope you know, your really fuckin stupid
you know that, dont you?
Why do you sit there and walk around
with a smile on your face?
Why do you act like everythings ok?
You know its not?
Is this really what you expected?
Is it what you wanted?
Are you happy now?
Is this the price you pay for "happiness"?
What has gotten in to you?
I bet you think your innocent in this, dont you?
Did you know your just as much to blame?
Did you know, you could have prevented this?
you do know that this is your choice, RIght?
That You chose what path to go down,
Do you want to keep heading down that path?
Do you just want to keep acting like nothing is wrong?
Fucking with minds, and lying to yourself?
Is that what you call living.....
When you go to sleep at night
Do you have wonderful Dreams?
How about vivid nightmares?
Close your eyes and what do you see?
I hope this image is burned into your mind for all enternity.
When your waking up in the middle of the night.......
Remember, You brought this upon yourself.
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Its been almost a week since I was admitted into the Emergency Room.
Still I have no answers. Only the stress that lingers in my mind of all the possibilities that could be going on. Ive tried to contact my Doctor 3 times. He has yet to return my call. It kinda disappoints me, being that I work in the medical field. Under are protocall we are required to contact the patient with in 24 hours of recieving blood work especially if theyre flags on the results. So I had them confirm them confirm that my results were in fact there. So they were kind enough to fax them over to me. RIght off the bat, I noticed two high level flags. My Hemoglobin and my Hematocrit. My neutrophils are at the highest of my reference interval. Apparently, something is going on. Tht thing that sucks is..... it could be anything from just being dehydrated all the way down to diseases in my Bone Marrow. :;Shrugs:: Just one more thing to ponder and worry about. Ive been putting something off for a few weeks now. I really should be heading out and getting this taken care of. I'm just kinda scared that this test, I could fail. Stupid mistakes in Judgement. Would you ever read me to be that type of person........ No? Yeah Im not to good at reading into people well either,apparently. I just want to stay at home and take my muscle relaxers so I can have a good nights sleep, pain free. .............
yeah Id update on all the wonderful things going on in my life, but Fuck that shit........
I'll save it for when you least expect it.
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Next time, i guess. Feel better.