I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
Your making me insane
All I can say is
I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance
I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
You fix yourself
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
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Well. What can I say? The thoughts I make in the next couple days, will be very impacting on which route I should take. I have till monday to make my final decisions. Should I stay or should I go? Ive never quit anything before in my life. Im just not happy anymore. Ive been given the opportunity to select my schedule. Have off on weekends and work a few nights, or vise versa. I know Im appreciated. I really do. I just cant seem to find myself. Im running around in a panic, driving myself mad, making myself dizzy and sick. Its like Im being chased into a room painted white with black trip and all I see is a room full of doors. I try to escape but the door I choose is locked. Which door to I choose, Which one should be next. My time is running short, I can hear footsteps drawing near. I must find my way out. What if more then one door is unlocked, and I happened to escape thru the wrong one. How do I know what what to choose and if it is truley destined to be, or not.