xviolentxbeautyx

Now reality is setting in.
right after it kicked my ass.

So after weeks of waiting and hoping...
they finally came an took my car while i was sleeping.

3 more days.......
3 more days.
Thats all i needed.

Now im screwed.

To top it off, I lost it and went off on my father in teh car on the way home.

Im tired of talking to me like Im a piece of shit.

He told me that he is tired of bailing me out.
I told him I NEVER asked for his money.

HE had the nerve to come back at me with
"I spent a shit load of money to get custody of you........."
I had to stop him right there, cause at that point I lost whatever respect I had left in me for me to bite my tounge.
I Yelled at him " AND YOUR GOING TO PUNISH ME FOR THAT?"
When I was younger. I always wanted to live here.
I always cried when i had to leave.
When I was 13 I decided that I wanted to live here. That i didnt want to go home. So my dad went and hired an attorney and we went thru all the legal bullarky. A month latere I was visiting my mom one weekend. When it was time to leave, she didnt want to say goodbye to me, she hid in her room crying. That killed me. That I was doing that to her. When she was the one who was always there for me. So i stayed with her. The legal agreement was that I could live with my father on the pretense that at anytime I wanted to go back to reside with my mom, I could.

Its so like him to throw that in my face.

Then he went on to talk shit about my brother.
Call him a bum and everything else.
So I vomited of the mouth again.........
That my brother has a job that he has a life but he doesnt know that cause he doesnt call him.
He blames things on us and my mom,
Im sick of it.

So at the end of it all.. he told me I can go back to baltimroe and live with someone else.......

SO should i start packing and walking my stuff there?

I dont know how long I can take this.

Im strong, but i can only take so much.