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Saturday Oct 08, 2005

Oct 8, 2005
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So I was reading Morgan's journal.
She mentioned something about eyes.
That when your with someone and you truley love them,
you see them. If you dont, you look thru them. More so at your own reflection.
I find this true in every aspect.
I couldnt have said it better myself.
When I read her journal It reminded me of song lyrics.

"Maybe Not"

So I wait,
for that day,
that I wont feel anything anymore.
Look in your eyes,
now i find,
things will never be the way they were before.
You come and see,
the things i lack.
Still make me smile,
say "never to look back".
Though I seem fine.
I've realized,
I find in you what i should take with me.

Baby, your not the one I want to be with,
not that there are things I wouldnt miss,
not the girl that you want me to be.
Your not the future that Im chasing,
not the fears i should be facing,
not that I wont miss the smile I saw in your eyes,
once in awhile.

Its just not the same,
when your pillow replaces your body,
on your side of the bed.
The closer I get to when I seem to forget,
when you pulled away from me.
Your eyes become distant,
so distant.
It was a journey that I was willing to take.
Still I cant believe Im haunted,
by your smile, your eyes, your touch, your everything.
I'll never trade that for the world.

So your not the one I want to be with,
not that there are things I wouldnt miss,
not the girl that you want me to be.
Not the future that Im chasing,
not the fears I should be facing,
not that I wont miss the smile I saw in your eyes
once in awhile.

~Fatesgame



Not to much to report here.
I missing out on the SG show at the Ottobar.
Im missing out on the CCS show in DC.

Im lonely.

It just seems that once you leave your life behind.
Its like you never existed.
Just like that.
Until YOU come back that is.

I know who has kept in contact and who are my "true" friends. That have been here to help and talk to me and show that they support me. Even if I dont ask for it.
When i do come back, I'll remember that.

I just feel so ........alone.

All i have is the internet, and that sucks.
wolfj:
You have me! I know I'm only on the internet and I don't count for much but hey, don't be lonley, I don't like it when your sad.
Oct 8, 2005

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