xtrememeow

Hey! You're doing the right thing! But try to find out wha's going wrong and make you depressed. If your force yourself to feel happy, the bad shit under will come back and everything is to start again.

Have a nice day!!!

i read this book a while back. (more, now, again) and i guess there are any number of impressions that i could and perhaps even should have walked away with. but. months later this is what sticks with me:

the idea to live "as if." basically, to change, start with what you can control, which are your actions. and then let your will catch up. stated another way, live as if you are the person you want to be.

sure, she may have been talking about it in the context of addiction. but whatever. i think it's an interesting idea. so i'm stealing it. or trying to anyway. cuz i feel like i'm kinda in the same boat you are. i'm tired of moping around the apartment feeling like a depressed loser.

so i wish you luck on your new beginning. i hope you come to be genuinely happier.