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::dies::
I'm betting my haircut.
tomorrow...er...well.... today.
at 1130.

I'm scared. I've been growing out my hair for a while now. but.... im too impatient.
I change my layout on my Blogger like every week...

and i usually change the layout on my myspace but i really like the one i have... so i decided not too.

I just.. im a real big fan of change. i guess. =/

this is what it looked like like 3 weeks ago. ish. [my boobs look... fantastic. lol,]

Its too big to put on the page, and i'm too lazy to resize. so clickkkk. <3



and im cutting it tomorrow. not sure how.. or why... and im thinking of dying it all red. or... something. :] or red and black. i dunno what i will do without my black hair. its been black for... like evar.

3 Months for boyfriend And I coming up on the 17th. i'm falling hard for him.. :whimpers:

and i know i can't tell him yet, because its only been 3 months... and i don't love him yet.... [i keep thinking i do, but i know i don't.] but i know that its gunna hit me like a fucking train soon, and he's reallly realllly against throwing that word around [hats off to him! he also doesn't drink/smoke or cuss. lol. but he's NOT all uptight, and he DOES fuck me when i ask for it.] so, im affraid that when i do, i won't be able to tell him. I don't want to scare him away.

GAHHRRRR.

i also decided, that i am going to go on that lose ten LBS in 3 days diet. a teacher of mine said her daughter did it m and it worked.. and my friend diana is doing it for the second time. [worked previously.]

because i am just not happy with my body. and i am toocheap /lazy to go to the gym. [but i do play DDR on standard!! = fucking crazy cardio/leg workout. my legs = steel.] and i love food too much to go on a long healthy diet [although i do only drink when i can help it, diet soda or water. :] {diet rootbeer ftw.} and i just want to get sdown a couple lbs. and stuff.. and i'll be happy.

oh, also i stuck my finger up my boyfriends butt today. ^_^ during sex. he did NOT like it. and i promised him a threesome with the girl of his choice if he's let me.

BAD IDEA.

1. i didn't make him go crazy when i stuck my you-know-what you-know-where

{AHH i just got the hiccups. GRR}

2.. im jealous.
very jealous. its basically going to be like me and him, and i'll be all touching her and stuff
and he will be like trying to touch her and i'll be like "NO TOUCHY!!!!"

oh... and i promised it to him over the next 3 months.
::smacks forhead::
Stupid STUPID ME.

ok, i have to wake up early to go do my hair thing.

IM EXCITED/SCARED/NERVOUS....

but i can't wait to show mehdi.

K. Night. <3