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So- i'm kinda sad. I was supposed to go to disneyland on friday.. But they are making me work. but it actually doesn't matter that much because Mehdi was supposed to go too, and he can't. so its kind of pointless.
i don't want to go unless he's going. so i think in like a month, me, him, selah and her boytoy are going to go.

[cute double date, no?]

also, everyones quitting at my job, so like im getting 15835 hours. [haha].

well, now i think i'm done with this entry.. although i could continue on about how my ex JonPaul started talking to me, and i havn't seen him in a year [he's the first love. the one i lost my virginity too.. you know. that whole story.] and he wants to come down and visit me. i want to see him because we've became good friends over the past couple months.. but.. WHY?! it was so random, and of course its when i have a boyfriend that i really like and genuinly care about. I kinda hope he tries to get me back... because he had me on his little finger for like... 2 years after we broke up. then he said something really fucked up to me [he apologized since then though] and now im just over him. But, i know he assumes that i'm still sprung on him and i really want to see the look on his face when i'm like "uh, eww?" HAHA.

oh well. i'm not going to Dwell on it, because i have to focus on my current boy, who is amazing.. and i don't want to fuck it up. :]

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