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Waking up cold and alone, feels like my heart has been replaced by this cold and lonely emptyness. My very first and prolly only girlfriend and I broke up.. I just haven't figure out if I am ready to turn my life upside down for someone who obviously can't wait for me to finish dealing with the things I've been dealing with for a long time before she decides to ask me if it's all or nothing between us.. why do ppl never understand just cause you don't think you are pushing ppl back into a corner.. you are.. I care about her alot love her til the ends of the earth she was my best friend... kept saying how no matter if we are together or not how our friendship would never die..

sure feels dead to me. telling me to ban her from my chat server to have a nice life..

she keeps saying how i never thought about how she felt in all of this.. i know that it was a whirl wind for her as well as for me, she's been wanting this for three years.. i decide that i truly want to try cause i do love her and there are feelings there but my family right now aren't very understanding in the whole sheena's going bisexual thing my husband is ok with it even tho he knows i'd never be down for a threesome. My family is my piority they always have been and when they won't even look me in the eyes.. that's what I gotta figure out exactly if all this is worth the possiblity of losing my parents and brother cause I love a girl. Right now I'm not ready to lose my family, I couldn't even tell Jamie that cause I didn't want her to hurt anymore than she already does. I want her to think that I copped out that I couldn't handle it... and the truth is.. I couldn't. I couldn't handle what it was doing to me inside and outside I couldn't handle the effects on my family relationship it created.. all or nothing... that's pretty much the choice i had between her and my family.. either i had her or i had them and I choose them..