xstephx

i'm bored and restless and i think it's time for a change.

now i'm going to make a coffee so that i can find something else to do with my working day other than work.

there is something or things going on in my life that i just can't quite put my finger on. it's like when someone racks a line of gear up your nose without telling you and you can't for the life of yourself work out why you're mowing the lawn at 3:00am. i don't know what is brewing below the surface of my psychie but i hope it's a map for a new direction in my life. a turning point per se cause fuck i'm bored of this lacklustre costume treasure.

i understand that satisfaction cannot be felt without first understanding the polar of dissatisfaction but it all seems to be so dissatisfying. maybe my expectations are too high? correction; maybe my expectations are too quick in a world of such instant gratification? maybe i need to reconnect to the enjoyment of "the little things"? or maybe i just need a big dose of get the fuck over it.