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so i fucked off for the last few weeks. mentally. i'm still sitting in the same computer chair i've had for the past two or so years. maybe withdrew is a better word. sort of like my mental health day. autopilot through work. haha i'm not crazy. i've just been bumming around but probably sounds a lot more tragic than it should because i'm stonned and sleepy but i'm waiting for my face mask to dry so i can wash it off before i go to bed. today was the usual. after work i went to midland gate to stock up on realistically unnecessary and overpriced products of varying personal natures (eye liner, compact, hair removal cream, cleanser etc) that all seem to run out at the same time. considering a boob job at the moment. well more like re considering for the hundredth time. i don't know that it's something i could ever actually go through with but when your b cups stare you in the face every day (well, between showers and dressing and general, nakedness) it's hard not consider the possibility at all. hey - an excuse to look up tits on the net right? on the other hand i'm a procrastinating indescisive little bitch that can't even commit to a meal for lunch without assessing all the options for half an hour. and so my life continues. my friend got sent up north a couple weeks ago. got given the opportunity to go and two days later he was gone. he didn't even fit in a party before he left but i burnt him a heap of metal and i'm sending it up to him with a stack of good porno's. figure it's the least i can do. "Exchanging Pleasantries" was shot a couple weeks ago. maybe i've been avoiding the site because i'm bursting to tell everyone about it. but between having operations on her broken ankle (well it's not broken any more but it got broken in a car accident a little while ago) and moving a few hours away my mate that shot it for me has been a touch busy in putting the final product together. but i'll keep you posted././././. but that was thursday night. my internet conveniently chose to have a moment while i was typing. so i saved it for a rainy day. and now it's sunday. and there's not a cloud in the sky. and i'm lazing away my afternoon in a scattered state of mind as i withdraw from the effects of lsd. admittedly this would be better if i had more beer and less family in the house right now.