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Okay, since no one commented on my last blog, which admittedly would have required about 20 minutes worth of reading, I will just say that I am disappointed to learn I am not in as opened a relationship as I thought I was. I have been going through really hard times lately, and my father died this last month. I went on a vacation to get away from all the thoughts of what was happening in my life, and during that vacation (at a nudist retreat) I kissed a few women, and did several things that are not normal for me, but also didn't seem to violate any aspects of the relationship I thought I had with my girl. Now she says I cheated, which I don't agree with, but moreover, I have never cheated on anyone in my life before. I care about her and want to win her back, but her reaction to what I did seems so unfeeling and so uncharacteristically without any understanding on her part, that I feel like this may break us up simply because I don't want to be with someone who can't understand how I am hurting right now and what it might cause me to do that is out of character for me.

She lost her father when she was 22, 11 years ago. It was a shock to her, and so I feel like she should know how hard to deal with this is. I didn't make any attempt to meet other women, I simply participated in the spirit of the nudist retreat I was at. At no time did I feel like I was going to be accused of being unfaithful. Now I just feel doubly screwed up.