*grumble* I had a visit with my personal trainer yesturday. She put me on a diet and its no fun. I have to eat 4 times a day. I don't eat twice a day usually but now I have to eat 4 times. No more fast food, all I can eat is chicken turkey fish and vegitables. Damn I am going to have fun with...
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Another day to wake up another day of work. I guess working 85 hours a week has its perks, I don't have any time to spend all of the money I am making. However dancing leaves me with a mess of expenses inorder to make more money. Need to go tanning, need to buy outfits, need to go to the gym, need to get my...
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sebsis:
Girl with .44 = Empowerment.
Haven't taken the chance to say much to you, but it was nice meeting you at The Castle the night we all got together for Stacie's b-day. Hope all has been and continues to go well for you.
Haven't taken the chance to say much to you, but it was nice meeting you at The Castle the night we all got together for Stacie's b-day. Hope all has been and continues to go well for you.
jofixxxit:
yeah......who needs cloths for work? as long as your happy, the money will be there when you take a break.
bests
bests
Well, my current boy situation seems to be a little bit better. He is telling me that I am being paranoid about his addiction however I question whether or not that is the situation. I do not trust his partying habbits and he is getting frustrated even though I have direct reason to question what he is doing. I suppose only time well tell however....
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801mustang:
yeah your right about time, but do you think that you are waisting your time waiting to get hurt? so any way ill talk to ya later
theory
theory
hellwood:
heard that one a couple of times and now one of my friends that i have known for along time is doing meth for a while, but always denied it.... after a long a\battle and him getting kicked out of the club, he beat his wife and 14yo duaghter.... now he says he has a problem......... just becareful girl....
elwood
elwood
grrrrr, I really hate boys sometimes. I hate relationships, I hate bullshit, and I hate boys. Unfortunitely however, I do like boys a whole lot and I am crazy about mine but he drives me crazy as well. I just wish he would not be so damn selfish and understand what he does and says and what I will not tolerate. I fear his addiction...
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hellwood:
sorry to hear about all the snowballs
victorian:
i dont think you realize that your boyfriends obviously does not love you
you said it
the drugs come before you
i suggest you stop deceiving yourself before you get yourself hurt, cause that would really suck, and i think Batattak is right
you said it
the drugs come before you
i suggest you stop deceiving yourself before you get yourself hurt, cause that would really suck, and i think Batattak is right
I have been informed that my best friend is comming down to see me. I haven't seen him in about 6monthes and this is truely the best christmas present I could have. Adam is my strength, he got 1 phone call of my situation with Justin and he is here to the rescue. Said he couldn't stand to know that I am in ft. myers...
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hellwood:
be safe, thinking of you
I have decided to try and go back to work today. I hate sitting around the house sick and it is alot harder on me with the whole Justin thing right now because I have nothing to do to keep my mind off of it. I am going to work tonight at the club. I just picked up my other paycheck from the piercing shop...
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hellwood:
Good going thats right small victories, I just got a big victory for all of us over here so things might be turning around....
801mustang:
dude i have this great idea!!!! are you ready............no not yet.........still not yet........you move to utah and hate your life even more cause how boring it is here!!!!!!! But you will live with this really hot guy i know(its me silly) I hear he is great in bed but no one really knows though.
B-rizzle
ps you need to cheer up
pps you just said pp
ppps i bet that made you smile
B-rizzle
ps you need to cheer up
pps you just said pp
ppps i bet that made you smile
Well tomorrow has been almost a week since Justin pulled the trigger and things really don't seem any easier. Maybe because by monday night I was running a 104 temp. maybe just because when it rains it pours. I was suppose to go back to work today at both my jobs but my case of the flu isn't allowing me to do so and I...
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xenos:
Well, I hope you feel better soon. Let me know if you change your mind.
xenos
xenos
hellwood:
hey girl
i'm really sorry, life sucks some times but like i learned when they were beating the shit out of me that it all boils down to small victorys, when all is going to shit, small victorys will get you though, its all you have and you get those and it will build up to bigger things then bigger things, and dont worry even though you are a women, i can still bitch alot more than you, remember i am a profesional. hehe that was a joke. gotta run
small victorys and boat drinks
elwood
i'm really sorry, life sucks some times but like i learned when they were beating the shit out of me that it all boils down to small victorys, when all is going to shit, small victorys will get you though, its all you have and you get those and it will build up to bigger things then bigger things, and dont worry even though you are a women, i can still bitch alot more than you, remember i am a profesional. hehe that was a joke. gotta run
small victorys and boat drinks
elwood
Today is a sad day in my head. My ex boyfriend took his life the night befor last and I think that my lack of sympathy is not necessarily to blame but as I said much undesired and I think it may have lead to the pushing over the edge. Although not throughout our relationship I can say for the last few monthes I have...
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hellwood:
wow these are all strong words that try and explain strong measures or actions taken.... reading above says alot from different people that may have or may have not been there/done that, but they are all good. I am so sorry, i have seen alot of things and gone thru alot of things, I lost my best friend a month ago here in an ambush, there was nothing i could do to help him, many many tears have been shed, and they wont stop for a long while. so i understand you feeling powerless and guilty about it, for that i am sorry and feel bad. I was not there i cannot say who's fault but really there is no blame, NONE. understand that please if anything. for you, just look ahead and understand you have a life to lead.. and live it to the fullest. I am soo sorry
[Edited on Dec 17, 2003 12:42AM]
[Edited on Dec 17, 2003 12:42AM]
xenos:
I'm sorry to hear it. It's always terrible to lose someone and it's tremendously easy to feel at fault. You just have to remember that you are not to blame. No one made him kill himself besides him.
If you need some company this weekend, I'm trying to get a get-together together for Saturday afternoon/evening. If you're feeling up to it, I'm sure you'd get some moral support from the SGFL gang, myself included.
If you need some company this weekend, I'm trying to get a get-together together for Saturday afternoon/evening. If you're feeling up to it, I'm sure you'd get some moral support from the SGFL gang, myself included.
Ok I am a little bit calmer now. I don't really now how I feel about the given situation at hand with Patrick's parents but whatever. I am atleast not screaming obsinities... I definitely fear the given situation and how me not being able to see him as often is going to take a toll on our relationship. Faith never was one of my strong...
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hellwood:
congrats on trying to visit the man, but damn i wish i was back there to check out the j.o.b. I hear you. but you do look beatiful. ya i will be here with all my "friends" but thinking about starting a HUGE fireworks show wink wink just so we can have some fun and do smething. Probaly just party with my pelican. agian wish i could come and help you out, your a strong girl.
elwood
elwood
801mustang:
you need a double to take care of your crap work so you can take some time off and so you can get some lovin from your man
Ya know sometimes you reach a fucking point when you just want to throw your fucking arms in the air and give up. Granted I know, I haven't been the best person in the world, and maybe my occupation is less then to be desired for some people but you do what makes you happy right? Maybe its not about my job like Patrick says...
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hellwood:
wow sounds like a day huh, sorry about that. its funny how people judge over silly BS, my guess is people have to have drama in their lives to make them happy becuase their lives are shit... I dont know I didnt get to stay at a holiday Inn suites hotel last night sorry
right on.