I know I shouldn't stress is just very hard to stay calm when karma is comming back to kick you in the ass full force and you totally know you deserve it. I haven't tried to be a bad person I just think that my fears take over and cause me to make decisions that are probably less then good for me. Its easier to let go then to get close and now I find myself in a situation kinda unable to let go, well I could but there is much more at stake on much higher levels and even though I probably could walk away from it as always with nothing more then a little bit of anger at myself, only to tuck away and make me more cold and emotionless then I already am I know it would crush those intertwined in the mess. God damn morality! do whats right? do whats right for me? that is the question...