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spent the weekend in Baton Rouge.

didnt plan on it, but it just happened.

i took friday off to bring her, the things i bought for her before a bunch of shit went down between us.

did that and it felt kind of bad. didnt have much hope leaving there.

went and skated with my friend mike. had an amazing session. then went to the mall and bought some clothes because i decided to hang out with a friend of mine that night. she wanted to go to some bar. i wasnt much for it, but i didnt want to come home and sit here alone all weekend. well on our way to the bar later that night i find out she is going too. apparently my friend called her up told her what we were doing and asked her if she wanted to come. she said yes and surprised the shit out of me. the night turned out to be great. it felt good being out somewhere with her.
we talked, laughed, made fun of people. it was great. sort of like old times... i didnt want the night to end. i wanted to stay in that moment forever... but as life is.. everything has it's end. yet.. we did it again the next night.. not the same place, but the same situation.

both nights i was left thinking how much i love her and want nothing more than to be with her.

i am sure she looks at it as just her friend she is hanging out with, which bothers me. i hope she felt more than just "friendly" towards me. i guess only time will tell.