A little history first.
When i was younger and in school I was bullied a lot, and this left some scars (mental ones) like having "matured mentaly"In an increased rate.
Also there is some PTSD in there. a lot of this has been opend and unlocked by therapy.
But i still "Suffer"from the problem that i have trouble talking to and being around people I find atractive and am Attracted too.
So this mondayafter a long delay time I went to a person i like a lot, the plans started last year somewhere to go and smoke some joints at her place.
And Moday we finaly did it.
This was a big win for me as i managed to be there almost 8 hours.
Now i have not smoked a lot of that stuff , and the first one we shared was more a mellow high. The second although.....now wthat was a mules kick to me, I have never been so stoned before. (i even feel i am still ealing with some....bowel.....issues due to it) We watched a scary movie and normaly they dont get to me, but that one in my stoned state did.
I had several gigling fits that were super nice, but the worst were the twitching i did (i googled it it is totaly normal to have that)
So yay me :)