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everything in my body hurts
wtfuxupwitdat?
Each day keeps slipping away faster than the last and I am wondering when I won't be sick--when I can feel like a real living boy--i mean, girl.
I want my luggage,
I want some self control,
I want to stop feeling sick GODDAMNIT
AHHHHHH

I can't believe that I am so sick.
Tonight I go to a "pantomime" and honestly I can't cross my room without feeling exhausted. I want to be enjoying Scotland but instead I am holed up in my room sick as a fucking dog.
I am frustrated with my immune system and my sleeping patterns.
I had to sleep on my back with my chin tilted upwards so all the fluids wouldn't suffocate me in my sleep. (I only got to sleep for 4 hours, kthx)
fuck.
to top it all off, my hair products got lost inside my luggage along with my hair extensions and all semblance of sanity. Also my neck glands feel swollen to the point of making me feel like the elephant man.
I hate being sick--I absolutely loathe it and in a couple days I get my period--JUST FUCKING BEAUTIFUL.
Hit me with your best shot god.





no please dont.
I am already defeated