xmt

as most of you know, i was in sf this last weekend.
good company, great party, beautiful women...i love that city.
i'd love to move there.
the people i've met there have all been really really great.
some even better than others...
i miss my friends there already.

i haven't seen a single crow there though.
i find this extremely unsettling.

today was the first day back to the grind.
it was actually pretty good. my first job of the day, was at this huge house on the canal.
cute girl about my age answers the door in mens briefs and a thread bare wife beater...fat sack lying on the coffee table and the wakey bake hanging heavy.
her boss sent her out from seattle to be there for me.
dammit. why do i have the new guy riding with me today?!

i have a full on cold now from being on the plane.
"kennel cough" as bonneville calls it.
i'm a dog.
i wanna be your dog.
heheh.

scottfree is tired and old.
i will be taking suggestions for a new name...until then i will change it everyday or so.
try to keep up.

i am ready for change.
i want to get rid of all my vehicles (except the stingray. i love that bike).
i want a new computer.
i want a change of scenery and a new job.
i want new clothes.
i need a new kinda kick. something i never had.
heh
i want to pose questions and not have to answer any.
i want to have someone else explain the way i am, better than i can.
i want to " know" something and not just "believe" it.
i want some fucking tattoos.
i want respect.
i want to steal back moments of time.
i want to feel something deep...that isn't necessarily hurt.
although that usually fits the bill just fine...
i'd take it if it's worth it.


i guess i just "want".
is that bad?
buddists might say so.
capitalists wouldn't.
i guess i'm capitalist by default...born into it.
i wish i could say i'm a socialist, but i don't care much for sharing.




i want a ploy that makes millions.