xmonox50

What a lonnnnngggggg week....i only put in about 50 some hours in since thursday but oh well it's money....interesting weekend though, a house went up in flames, exploded infront of me, and scareing the living shit out of me, turns out there may have been a meth lab inside! great.... one more thing for me to worry about after breathing all that wonderful smoke in! then an elderly man passed away infront of me....you know i love my job, but i see peoples lives change in a blink, whether seeing peoples houses burn down infront of them or seeing people take their last breaths infront of my eyes and it's weird it doest effect me then, but when it happens in your own family it's a different story.. i dont know if thats normal or not but im bound to find out sooner or later.....

As much as i try to help people it never works, i wish there was just one person out there that i could get through to or just listen to my advice, so that i could for once think to myself that hey i actually made a difference in that persons life. just once do i wish that but so far i only encounter idiots (on my job that is) and they dont wanna hear it.....WTF.....for once just listen to what someone gotta say for a day, if you like it hey maybe its for the better, if not try someone else's advice but you never know whats gonna work until you try something.............