Well. I officially don't care anymore. I'm no longer waiting for people to call me, this includes everyone, even my best friend. If you don't feel the need to call me back or follow through with what you say.. so be it. I'm done being the nice little girl everyone always thinks I am. I always care so much about my friends and then backstab me. Oh and guys. Wow. Lets not even go there. I'm the worst when it comes to guys. I'm not caring. Wow, how I hate doing this. Oh fucking well.
Tom, I dont know what to do. I'm done. Theres not enough time in the day because you can't make enough time for me. You have personal things to deal with, but you can write on here and the phone is too hard to pick up? Do you know how that feels? You wanted me to know what I wanted. Now I figured out what I wanted and you don't even know what you wanted for yourself. I'm done. I can't keep caring when it means nothing. This is why I don't make the first move. This is why I'm not taken. I always wind up having feelings for someone and then they do exactly what your doing now, to me. I always get fucked over in the end. Of course you know if you ever call I'll forgive you because thats just how I am. You don't want to play games but isn't that what most guys do? Guys are my weakness.
In other news.. I think I'm just going to spend some time with myself. I filed for my taxes and it was what I expected. I guess I'll go buy myself a few nice things. I really need to get out of my house at least once this week. Tomorrow night is my friends and our 'weekly movie night'. We all go over Bob and Mikes and watch like 2 movies and cook food and then everyone goes to sleep. I'm the only girl there and that sucks x1000000 because I hate talking to guys about my personal issues. I feel like I'm bothering them to talk with them about it. Oh, I haven't seen my best friend in 3 days and for some reason.. I haven't missed her. That might be bad to say, but when your best friend tries too hard to ACT like she feels sorry for you and your problems and when you tell her your problems and she doesn't try to help you but she changes the subject in less than a minute and looks up to you to help her.. its kinda a fucked up situation. Thats kinda how my life goes right now. A fucked up situation. Fun for me. Woohoo. Anyways. It's 5am and I'm just going to check my email then go finish watching 'Fight Club' being that I finally got a TV in my room being that my other one was broke for a long time. I took the ps2 also
. Anyways, goodnight to all. Hope my journal wasn't too depressing for anyone. I wouldn't know, I'm used to it.
Goodnight lovers
Tom, I dont know what to do. I'm done. Theres not enough time in the day because you can't make enough time for me. You have personal things to deal with, but you can write on here and the phone is too hard to pick up? Do you know how that feels? You wanted me to know what I wanted. Now I figured out what I wanted and you don't even know what you wanted for yourself. I'm done. I can't keep caring when it means nothing. This is why I don't make the first move. This is why I'm not taken. I always wind up having feelings for someone and then they do exactly what your doing now, to me. I always get fucked over in the end. Of course you know if you ever call I'll forgive you because thats just how I am. You don't want to play games but isn't that what most guys do? Guys are my weakness.
In other news.. I think I'm just going to spend some time with myself. I filed for my taxes and it was what I expected. I guess I'll go buy myself a few nice things. I really need to get out of my house at least once this week. Tomorrow night is my friends and our 'weekly movie night'. We all go over Bob and Mikes and watch like 2 movies and cook food and then everyone goes to sleep. I'm the only girl there and that sucks x1000000 because I hate talking to guys about my personal issues. I feel like I'm bothering them to talk with them about it. Oh, I haven't seen my best friend in 3 days and for some reason.. I haven't missed her. That might be bad to say, but when your best friend tries too hard to ACT like she feels sorry for you and your problems and when you tell her your problems and she doesn't try to help you but she changes the subject in less than a minute and looks up to you to help her.. its kinda a fucked up situation. Thats kinda how my life goes right now. A fucked up situation. Fun for me. Woohoo. Anyways. It's 5am and I'm just going to check my email then go finish watching 'Fight Club' being that I finally got a TV in my room being that my other one was broke for a long time. I took the ps2 also
. Anyways, goodnight to all. Hope my journal wasn't too depressing for anyone. I wouldn't know, I'm used to it.
Goodnight lovers