another day. :sigh:
Veteran's Day. I realize that I'm a vet now. And I had to go to school today.
Oh well, I'm paying for the classes.
Anyway, last night I wasn't too happy with. After class I went and hung out with Whitney at her best friend's place. Brinnon (Whitney's best friend) left to go talk to Whitney's brother, leaving me and Whitney there to hang out. Shortly after a couple of phone calls, a friend of Whitney's and these 2 dudes come over to smoke out. Being sick, I didn't want to around pot, nor people I didn't know. I spent part of the night outside on the phone to a drunken Randy and about-to-get-laid Shane. Whitney came outside to be like, "oh, don't go. we won't smoke anymore." Yeah, sure whatever.
I'm really getting sick of Whitney's drinking, smoking and drug use. I thought I could handle it, but I was wrong. It alienates me from her, and I'm wondering why I'm even messing around with her. I think it may be a case where I'm thinking with my dick again. But then again, I'm testing my re-dedication to sXe and my values, experimenting with what I can tolerate in a relationship with a non-edger. I'm failing the relationship test (or she is), and my sXe values are passing with flying colors.
I am to the point where I want to drop Whitney (and more importantly her "partying" habits). I'm being a parent figure more than a boyfriend again, much like my relationship to Shannon, my Canadian ex. I probably should stop being spineless and not put up with it all. Too much drama, too many bong-resin brained losers.
On a side note, Meghan is basically is all apologetic of the way she acted towards me in the past and is, more or less, asking for a second chance. So it puts me in a dilemma: A) cheat (which I refuse to do), or B) break up with Whitney for Meghan (who I really connect with aside from her flakeyness), or C) fuck 'em all and just be alone, dramaless.
Veteran's Day. I realize that I'm a vet now. And I had to go to school today.
Oh well, I'm paying for the classes.
Anyway, last night I wasn't too happy with. After class I went and hung out with Whitney at her best friend's place. Brinnon (Whitney's best friend) left to go talk to Whitney's brother, leaving me and Whitney there to hang out. Shortly after a couple of phone calls, a friend of Whitney's and these 2 dudes come over to smoke out. Being sick, I didn't want to around pot, nor people I didn't know. I spent part of the night outside on the phone to a drunken Randy and about-to-get-laid Shane. Whitney came outside to be like, "oh, don't go. we won't smoke anymore." Yeah, sure whatever.
I'm really getting sick of Whitney's drinking, smoking and drug use. I thought I could handle it, but I was wrong. It alienates me from her, and I'm wondering why I'm even messing around with her. I think it may be a case where I'm thinking with my dick again. But then again, I'm testing my re-dedication to sXe and my values, experimenting with what I can tolerate in a relationship with a non-edger. I'm failing the relationship test (or she is), and my sXe values are passing with flying colors.
I am to the point where I want to drop Whitney (and more importantly her "partying" habits). I'm being a parent figure more than a boyfriend again, much like my relationship to Shannon, my Canadian ex. I probably should stop being spineless and not put up with it all. Too much drama, too many bong-resin brained losers.
On a side note, Meghan is basically is all apologetic of the way she acted towards me in the past and is, more or less, asking for a second chance. So it puts me in a dilemma: A) cheat (which I refuse to do), or B) break up with Whitney for Meghan (who I really connect with aside from her flakeyness), or C) fuck 'em all and just be alone, dramaless.
If Whitney's drinking, smoking, and drug use hasn't really subsided out of respect for you and your relationship, and if it's becoming the most frequent basis for argument and "parental actions" it's probably best just to save yourself the energy and move on.
I guess I don't really know who this flakey Meghan girl is or to what extent her flakiness is. I'd say try that out, but I'm kind of dealing with a flakey girl too, Millie, it's pretty frustrating.
your relationship woes at least keep you on your toes......i could use an injection of sXe sometime soon......take care!