Ever feel like you have lost something, or given up someone that you really should have kept? Even though you are happy with things the way the are, you just can't help but have a hole in your heart for the loss, and the possibilities of things that could have been. Even if you know things should not have been, and you believe yourself to be better, th eyearning never quite goes away, and springs up in sudden attacks of emotional pain. Give thanks to your dreams when they remind you of lives long past.
eroticgeek:
I totally know how you feel. Life is full of "what if's?" but if we spend our time concentrating on those things then we tend to lose focus on the great things we do have. Yes, sometimes thinking about what could have been still hurts, but that is just because it had no closure. There will be lots of time in life when things are just left open. In some cases, you will cross that path again. In others, you will never go down that road again. I totally believe in fate. Due to this, I think if something is meant to be, then it be. If not, then we will be given something else better. Enjoy life for what it is and take each day as it happens. In the same sense, we all have free will. We can change things. It is only you who has the power to do that, no one else. I hope what ever is weighing heavy on your mind soon resolves itself. It sucks to have something always be sticking in the back of your mind. Oh and yeah thank you so much for the kind words on my blog. It really made me smile! 
As far as my current boyfriend, yes, he is 1000% better than the asshole I was with before. Sometimes, girls like myself feel they can only get what they have and settle. I am still trying to adjust to that fact that there are other people who think I "dating" material. Being in such an abusive relationship as my previous one didn't help that feeling of being "unworthy" of love and respect! I wish the best in love and life....
As far as my current boyfriend, yes, he is 1000% better than the asshole I was with before. Sometimes, girls like myself feel they can only get what they have and settle. I am still trying to adjust to that fact that there are other people who think I "dating" material. Being in such an abusive relationship as my previous one didn't help that feeling of being "unworthy" of love and respect! I wish the best in love and life....