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This guy is going to bed, pretty uneventful day except that all of the laundry is done and I can actually park a car in the garage now.

Thursday night I will be in Tampa for the Black Light Burns / CombiChrist Show, and then Friday and Saturday night I will be at Dr. Feelgood's getting fucking shit faced and driving home under the influence, just like last weekend. I will throw a couple of bartending job interviews into the weekend for good measure and hopefully be working this time next week.

Tomorrow I am going to places in person and applying hardcore. I will not let me taking this bartending course go to waste by me working at Hot Topic or Starfuck's again.

And maybe I can even break open the fucking LOGIC PRO Manual and actually fucking learn something instead of just fucking with the synths for hours on end. For fuck's sake I am pissed the fuck off. I can't accomplish shit and it's making me feel Loserific.

On a more positive note, I practiced my counts today and made Blue Kamikaze shooters for myself and my parents, which met great reviews. I may actually be talented in something after all and not some fucking self-conscious mediocre schmuck who tries to impress people too much and plays the nice guy and who gets walked on. I refuse to put up with that bullshit.

Makes me want to just punch a bystander because of the anger I feel towards myself.

Not healthy.

I'm torn between being overly optimistic and blatantly bitter about everything, But I just amused myself by using some type of alliteration...

P.s. The font on my mac is WAAAY too fucking small. I definitely need a bigger monitor,

This is me, in one of my more furious moods.