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So today was a wasted day, but I have my bills squared away and ready to pay.

I totally did not mean to rhyme with that last line, but I liked how it turned out.

My myspace was revamped because my girlfriend and I broke up. She didn't want the distance between us to put a strain on our relationship. Whatever that may have been. The first month was awesome but I don't know how we got to this point. I can't change anything, and neither can she. I am kind of numb to it all though, maybe it will hit me at some point. This isn't the first time a girl has broken up with me because I was getting deployed. When I went to Africa, Ashley broke up with me, but yeah that was a crazy roller coaster of a relationshit.

Myspace.com/cantfindmeninja

I cannot stand writing about myself anymore really in regards to creating a "profile." It really gets boring after a while.

I will be purchasing a MacBook tomorrow and a new digital camera. These are for school and the deployment, my music, and my sanity.

So me. Single. Again.

I feel like a fish that was almost cooked after it was caught, but it was decided that I would be thrown back into the lake after suffocating on the dock for a couple of minutes. Oxygen going into my little gills. Right before I choke to death, I am dropped into the water and gasping for it. The thing is, I don't feel like swimming around anymore. I just want to float in one spot and stare at the top of the water, hoping to be caught.

The next time I won't take the bait though, because I know what kind of shit they are using to try and catch me.

In any event, that extended metaphor made no sense at all, but at least we know what its like to be a fish in a man made lake.

Take this with you for good luck.

Goodnight again.