I think I've what others say "rock bottom". I thought this semester I was going to graduate and finally get the fuck out of college... I told my all my cousins, aunts, uncles and friend that I was going to graduate and that I would let them know when I'm going to have my party throughout this past semester.... One week ago today my counselor said I couldn't graduate because I'm short 12 credits of my 124 minimum credit count.
Now I don't want to go into the details of how the fucking counselors are a bunch of idiots who need to remove themselves from the gene pool, but I was seriously pissed. I wanted to throw every single counselor in that office out of the window and smash my first counselors head in with the water cooler because quite frankly, he's a complete d'bag for continuously doing the wrong thing.
The worst part was telling my family. My mom felt bad for me, my dad was mad at my school, my sister is out a few hundred dollars because she was going to fly down to my graduation ceremony, and my brother was just as angry as my dad. Everyone tried to make me feel better and it has worked, but a wandering mind can make it all worse again.
The bad thing now is that everyone thinks I'm okay, but I'm not. I'm completely embarrassed for the fact I told all my friends, cousins, aunts and uncles that I was going to graduate and now I have to tell them that there was a fuck up on part of the school and me and now I can't graduate. The past week has been horrible. There were a few days where I just wanted to be left alone and not talk, but in doing so I know all those emotions my family felt last Wednesday would just come back and make everyone grumpy and angry. So I force myself to say something or act happy when in all actuality I feel like I just got a colognoscopy. I try to busy myself by playing video games, studying for my final or listening to music but all I keep thinking about is beating the shit out of my first counselor and other ways I myself could have fixed this and prevented this.
I feel like I'm going out of my mind........
Now I don't want to go into the details of how the fucking counselors are a bunch of idiots who need to remove themselves from the gene pool, but I was seriously pissed. I wanted to throw every single counselor in that office out of the window and smash my first counselors head in with the water cooler because quite frankly, he's a complete d'bag for continuously doing the wrong thing.
The worst part was telling my family. My mom felt bad for me, my dad was mad at my school, my sister is out a few hundred dollars because she was going to fly down to my graduation ceremony, and my brother was just as angry as my dad. Everyone tried to make me feel better and it has worked, but a wandering mind can make it all worse again.
The bad thing now is that everyone thinks I'm okay, but I'm not. I'm completely embarrassed for the fact I told all my friends, cousins, aunts and uncles that I was going to graduate and now I have to tell them that there was a fuck up on part of the school and me and now I can't graduate. The past week has been horrible. There were a few days where I just wanted to be left alone and not talk, but in doing so I know all those emotions my family felt last Wednesday would just come back and make everyone grumpy and angry. So I force myself to say something or act happy when in all actuality I feel like I just got a colognoscopy. I try to busy myself by playing video games, studying for my final or listening to music but all I keep thinking about is beating the shit out of my first counselor and other ways I myself could have fixed this and prevented this.
I feel like I'm going out of my mind........
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Im heartbroken.