I know that I have barely been active socially here, but that inactive status is about to increase. I, honestly, love all of you so very much and wish I could check in with everyone multiple times throughout the day, but sometimes it's tough to find a moment of time to check in once a day.
I'm still a little overwhelmed with the amount beautiful sets I fully intend to comment on through my active time here. I will keep my Facebook Messenger, Whatsapp, and phone available at all times if anyone feels the need to contact me or wants to get have a deeper conversation about love, life, depression, and everything between. I won't be gone. I'll just be less socially active online.
I have been dealing with some family things that sapped a lot of "me time" putting me behind where I wanted to be. A lot less sleep, little relaxation, and some overexertion. It's nothing crazy, so don't worry about pulling out the sympathy cards. The next few weeks include everything from a dental checkup to car maintenance and quite a few things between. On top of that, I scheduled massage therapy and cryotherapy appointments for my knee/overall health "self care" before I totally destroy myself with hard skating. I do have a long weekend hosting/playing bouts the upcoming weekend as well. In other words, it seems I somehow have two appointments scheduled every week the next few weeks and have to prepare myself mentally and physically for three total bouts skating (my knee will hate me) while also helping line everything up for our huge event (a month from now) that brings skaters from all over the world to Cleveland, Ohio.
Looking at my calendar for work/appointments/derby over the next 4 weeks is rather intimidating, but some of these things are better off being stacked up now than put off until later. The therapy is going to help me out physically, derby helps me out mentally despite destroying me physically, and I could use some plain old time away from everyone else.
Reading this post makes me believe I'm nuts for bothering to post what looks like a fairly simple schedule of events, but my fragile depressive mind can only handle so much so it requires some focus to get through with sanity intact.
In short, I'll likely be dropping by to comment on sets as a relaxing escape, but I won't be participating in much beyond that for a while. I love seeing you beautiful people expose the core essence of yourselves here while stripping away the layers of that "9 to 5" life everyone else sees. It relaxes me to spend some time reading into the sets and leaving some of my emotions through typed up commentary. It's actually very soothing therapy for me even if it's become a bit overwhelming with a large backlog.
If you need anything at all, don't hesitate to contact me in whatever ways you have available. I'm still here. I'm just taking time to get that well-rounded therapy my muscles (including my brain) need.
Our friendship and love is still high priority. Don't forget that. I'm ALWAYS here for you, new friend or old.
Until next time,
Xander
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