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Its become quite clear to me now, that changes need to be made in my life. For the second time in this past year, a friend of mine has (at least nicely this time) told me that its best we no longer talk. I need too much. I expect those in my life to help me be happier about myself. And I know theres something wrong with this.

With the departure of two friends, Brenna and Mary, my feelings are hurt and I guess this is what it took to wake me up to the way I behave. I focus on myself a lot. I thought I had stopped, and for sure I feel as if I've improved. But after today, I guess I have a long way to go. Does anyone else have any advice? I'm kind of focussing on figuring myself out spiritually. And I know that it'll be a while before I'm ready to start dating anyone again. Last time, I took some time off from it, focussing on myself, let something happen and it ended poorly. But I made a friend. So we'll see.

For now, I'm going to count my blessings, be thankful for the friends I have, and go to bed.